i've been challenged!....

i"ve been gently 'challenged' to update my blog by a friend....somemore wan to race me to publishing it...tsk tsk...boys nowadays...anyway, blogging takes time wan...must think thru wat to write.....i would like to write every single details but i think it won't be fun reading it then...

anyways, been thinking bout studying MBA. a few reasons why....get more money, support my lifestyle and my family and get more money...hehe..
problem is, i dunno if it would do all the above cos when u're more qualified, ppl tend not wan to pay you so much....and since i'm in the medical line now...doing something very technical with hardly any managament or business experience, where am i gonna start? then i've been thinking about changing job and if i do that, would i have the time to attend the lectures and i would need to sacrifice my free time and social time and i can't do wat i like to do now!-_- my parents said they would sponsor for my MBA....ok...i dun really wan to take their money cos its their retirement fund...and i dunno if investing in me is a good idea cos i dunno if it would bring good returns...
another reason for hesitating is bcos i tot of becoming a clinical research associate(CRA) and that job requires a lot of travelling and meeting docs in diff hospital or universities's medical faculties to ask them to try out a new drug and then gathering the data.how to study lar kan....so i'm stumped....
back to MBA, to my parents delight, i told them i'm gonna check out the class that a friend of mine is currently attending.so i went....and to my horror....i felt so diff from these ppl when i first stepped into the lecture hall(classes hasn't start cos we're early)as time pass by, i observed how a coursemate talked to another coursemate and they were talking bout the market share and stock exchange...my goodness....i dun talk bout those things in office, we only talked bout how terrible the clerk is for not passing on the message or how slow the nurses are when they dun send patients to us when we called them to send and how snobby and fussy that patient is for waiting for 1 hour and how irritating the customer service ppl are interrupting in our work flow...basically petty issues..
i tried imagining that i'm gonna take mba and i'm gonna have to do groupwork and who would i wan to work with...and suddenly...i realised...these ppl are of diff age s and some from diff country and some diff background(some full time students, some with working experiences and some none...) i dunno how to wrok with them....suddenly my scope of the working world enlarged cos all this while i've been in the position of where ppl NEED me to do the tests on them so i would have their full cooperation without manipulating or thinking of ways to get things done.now if i were to work in a group, i have to do TEAMWORK....aiyo...macam 1st time i hear that word....i just realised, i've been working very individually, i dun NEED other ppl's help and i DUN WAN to ask for ppl's help cos i know my colleagues wouldn't offer it anyway....(yes that's the culture la in my dept and can say hospital too...not everyone practices it tho)
so now i have to learn to ASK for other ppl's help...strangers somemore...learn to communicate...wah.....but its good lar...i realized there's more than just working in my little Neuro Lab in a little dept.
am praying wat to do next...in a crossroad...i just wan more annual leaves, 5 working days, nearby my house (not too far like KL or at least goin there got no jam), more pay and dun need to wake up so early...ya!its possible!i asked God for it and that's how i ended where i'm working now...tho i have to work on Sat i tot it was fine since i lived so near...but now i dun think so anymore...i need to get out b4 i get too scared to do anything or try anything and my brain shrinks...

Sick again..

yeah...sick again...the last time was in April cos i blogged about it...funny...how being sick pulls you back to reality..it doesn't have to be terminal illness to make you think about life...about who are the important ppl in your life and who would be there for you and who cares for you....

its always nice to have someone care for you when u're sick...i love it...maybe cos i feel loved..there was a time when my mom din't care if i was sick....and i din't like telling her i'm sick cos she will start to nag bout me goin out everyday....not sleeping enough..so its like saying...its your own fault that u're sick so y should i care for you when you dun even care for yourself?...so mean kan...yeah...so i remember there was one time i told her...you don't care when i'm sick!then she will start to repeat her story of when she was sick, my dad and myself din't care for her...she has to take care of herself and even have to cook for us!!so...i dunno y she's still saying all this after so long.....but she's much better now....she doesn't say it anymore but she shows by her actions that she cares for me....she prepares breakfast for me every morning except on weekend...and she does my laundry sometimes....i guess now i understand and see how she loves me by her actions...

Bloom 2007!

it came and now its gone! Bloom is the women's conference organised by Acts Church...so fast...been a tiring week...was asked to help with flower dedications...over 400 dedications...so 400 flowers..was very busy collecting money and writing down who owes how much..hahaha...the flowers were beautiful!but din't really smell great...from China..according to BW....haha..
i love this color called lipstick...also the dark reds, pink and whites..trying to get a good shot of the flowers..

This time round, i didn't actually sit in and attended for all the sessions...for the 1st session on Fri nite..was busy helping to arrange the flowers to be given out by the Blue and White guys...so nice kan...each of them carried some flowers and went to the stage and called out the girl's name..of course the flowers weren't from the guys but they helped deliver the flowers to the girls..so almost every girl got the chance to walk up the stage to receive the flowers...mine was given to me by Jason H. but he din't wait for me to go up the stage!he ran down and passed it to me at the back of everyone...aiya....well...i guess its good also lar...no need to run up...guys should bring flowers to the girls mar..haha...(anyway, Jason is just a friend).Then we had mini Magnum sponsored by Ps San's sis-in-law...the next morning had a few more sessions and workshops...the workshops were fun...taught about how to care for your car, make-me-up, healthy living and domestic goddess(learn about how to iron clothes, fold fitted sheets and t-shirts in 2-steps, how to pack your bags so u can put in more things(!), make cocktail food and drink, find out your bra size and how to wear them properly to support your breast so it doesn't sag too early..hahaha!)only can go for 2 workshops out of 4 ler...

We also had fun stuff like looking under your seat to find out wat u've won....not every seats got prize lar...prizes were movie tickets from GSC, Sasa gifts packs, Gap's tote bag and Bobbi Brown makeup!aaaaaaaahhhh.....and i won the Bobbi Brown makeup!!so happy!so delighted!! i remember i was telling God i wan to win the Bobbi Brown gift...haha....i dun really like to run up to the front to answer questions...some more with so many other ppl running too...so i did try to run..but cos i sat at the back...wasn't fast enough...so when the turn came for the BB stuff, i was ready to rush to the front..it was probably the most difficult question:

What is the theme for Bloom this year and which Bible is referred to?

by the grace of God and power of my PG huddles, Elaine told me to get the gift pack which Debbie had under her seat(we all sat in the same row). On it was the answer!~wah...i was the only person that walked(this was the best part!see how God works!)to the front with the gift bag and feeling every eyes looking at me...and answered the question(it was Contagious and 2 cor 2:15-16) Then, Ps San being pastor asked so...wat is the key word from the verse...i'm like...er...can i refer to the bag that i was holding? she din't say no so i looked and the key word just came immediately and i answered 'fragrance of Christ'...then she asked so...the fragrance of Christ..wat does it do?i'm like.....er...looking at the Jill and other girls who practically told me the answer(by whispering)....it influences and....er...er...wat?diffuse?i wanted to say effusion...i dunno why...i have this habit of choosing my own version of answers..but thankfully, i made me say 'Diffusing?' and everyone roared(i think...maybe its just my imagination) i got my gift!!woohoo!!!


i'm gonna look like some professional model on Sun service....haha..yeah,day dreaming...u see...it was a face palatte.i din't have brushes for it....so i din't really use it on Sun except the eye shadows and lip gloss.I found out later it was chosen by Sunil...shucks....wat was he thinking???the colors, i felt it was more suitable for darker skin tone....cos the blusher was bronze brown kind...oh well....if anyone knows how to put it on me..please let me know!i'm supposed to look sun-kissed with these make up.....=)

One of my nicest weekend break..

Man....after working so hard for over 1 month without any holidays in between(remember i work 5.5 days so its like working 6 days a week) and having church meetings here and there, finally i got my break on 28 July..its a Sat...
got an invite from Elaine and Janet to watch movie at the Starlight Cinema that night!i was so excited!!watching movie under the stars.....wow...how romantic can u get??anyway, i love these kinda things, nature and all and i've never been to one so i happily accepted the invitation. It rained in the afternoon and the movie was to start at 8pm. So we had dinner first at a Phillipino restaurant in Centrepoint. Ordered pork ribs and some veges and some soup which tastes soury but nice.Had a pleasant dinner and tried some food which i normally don't eat. After dinner, we walked to KBU and spread the sleeping bag and sat on it.Since it rained earlier, the weather was cooling.We watched Devil Wears Prada followed by Little Man. Tek Y and Jason H also joined us and they brought a bigger mat which all of us could stretch our legs and sit in watever position we like..Little Man wasn't a nice show.it was rather cheesy for me....The movies ended at almost 12pm.so we went home after that.
On Sun, Ps Kenneth preached a good message on repentance..He said repentance or to repent was meant to be a good message. but we often think of it as something bad. based on the Bible verse somewhere in Luke(?) Jesus said 'Repent, for the Kingdom of God is near.' Kingdom of God is a good news. He gave the analogy of having buffet for dinner. If we know that we're for a good dinner buffet, wouldn't we prepare ourselves for it such as not eating lunch so that we can have more at the buffet. So its the same with repenting. Its a change of mindset, thinking, lifestyle. So it isin't a bad thing cos by getting rid of the stuff we dun need, we're gonna receive better things. There were other things he said which i totally agreed with but i can't remember fully now.haha......
Then on Sun nite, my mom and i flew to Bangkok and we stayed for 3 days 3 nites. It was fun. The hotel was great for me cos its small but it has most of the facilities like the big hotels. I like it cos the atmosphere was very Western and there were no Msians there!We listened to jazz songswhile having breakfast. i have nothing against them but somehow, i dun really like hanging with Msians strangers esp if they are the kiasu type. I did make friends with the breakfast chef(haha!) and the front desk receptionist. She was so nice she wrote me a note b4 i left Bangkok. Actually at the last nite i was there, i thanked her for her efficiency and warm welcome when i first arrived at the hotel....yeah...so then on my flight back to KL, sat next to a Thai mommy with a 3 year-old son who was very active and talked almost nonstop. His dad is Caucasian and just started working in KL so the mother and child was going to visit his father. The father went to KLIA instead of LCCT to pick them up so i offered my help by calling her husband and telling them where we are. Amazing kan...can be a blessing no matter where you are.....
oh btw, most of the ppl in Bangkok tot i was Thai..when i was at the airport, a custom officer came to me and spoke Thai to me and told me to go to the Thai counter to get my passport stamped.I told him i'm Malaysia and he said oh!I tot you are Thai..i wonder which part of me looks like Thai...was thinking maybe its my flat nose and my hair style which i combed my fringe up and then tie a ponytail.When i reached Bangkok, i noticed most Thai girls had my kinda hair style...mainly have the fringed all tied up with hair clips or sprayed with hair spray.All the salesgirls spoke Thai to me..Even the guy selling water spoke Thai to me.Sit baht..huh?10 baht...haha...new word. khup kun kraa..means thank you...must speak with accent wan...so i look like a Thai...not bad eh....
so overall, it was a good holiday....i just dreaded going to work the next day!!=P

All in a day's work..

I work 5.5days a week....to me its 6 days a week because i have to wake up early on Sat. And most Sundays too...i get public holidays on Sat...that's when i sleep in but most times i dun bcos i love being up on Sat mornings and have breakfast either at home or at coffee shop.

What do i do?I'm a medical lab technologist.
er...what do i actually do? I perform diagnostic tests on patients such as EEG, ECG, NCS, EPs, stress test.
Is it like x-ray?No...i perform functional tests not take pictures of people's body parts. But i do check and see if it works ;) haha!i'm based in Neurology lab so the parts i see are heads and limbs.basically i conduct tests on their brains (EletroEncephaloGram)and nerves(NerveConductionStudies) and sometimes blood flow in the brain(Transcranial doppler)...I also help out in the Cardiopulmonary side doing ECG and Stress test.
So, i meet lotsa ppl everyday..mainly older men and women...the youngest patient i had so far is 2 months old(and she has chubby cheeks!) and the oldest maybe 91 years old.
I get a variety of patients...some have psychiatric disorder.....there was one that was so depressed after breaking up with her bf that she refused to talk and only communicate with writing and refused to move her hands or legs claiming they were weak. Another faked a series of seizures or fits to get attention from her husband i think...not sure but she was put into CCU for a week and 1 nite in CCU costs a lot.poor hubby...my colleague was so tired of seeing her that she purposely provoked the patient to fit...the nurses that were in the unit were laughing their heads off....there was yet another girl, seriously has epilepsy but took her health almost nonchalantly..

Epilepsy is a long term illness.Patients that are diagnosed with epilepsy have to take medication for at least 1 year and at most, all their life. The medication is to control the abnormal brain waves.Epileptic patient have abnormal brain waves and sometimes too much of it manifests itself in the external whereby you can see the patient has up rolling eyes, drooling, stiffness of limbs or jerking of limbs or whole body and etc. If they don't control these abnormal activities in the brain, it is harmful for the individual especially kids because it will disrupt the development of their brain causing them to be either mentally retarded or slow in mental development. When uncontrolled or medication taken is stopped halfway, patients will have uncontrolled seizres and can end up in ICU.which is really bad bcos it either makes them really really sick for a long time such as few months or it could kill them.
So if you know of anyone who has epilepsy, do let them know that only medication can help them. another option is surgery but that's only applicable if the patients have tumour or lesion in their brain.
So, i dun think i told you wat i do at work everyday...haha..will leave for another day.but i really look forward to lunch and goin home time. Lunch because its the only time i get to go out and relax..so i welcome lunch dates...haha!

Durians...

Had dinner at Paris Restaurant in SS2...Wei and Doug gave us a treat for helping out at her wedding...really yummy food....then managed to catch up with a few friends...good to be able to do that cos they are so busy in church so no time to catch up at all...

after that we had durians for dessert!!it was yummylicous!oh my.....its so so good.......i hope i dun fall sick.....hah!i ate until i was really full........my fingers smell good now...durian smell!haha....

Love Languages..

I've been thinking of wat to post on my blog...i've got so many topics...and this is one of them...initially i wanted this blog to be like an update blog...which it is lar..then....i tot of writing updates which incorporates something much 'deeper'...will see how i go with this...haha...

love languages...i did the test before and found that the highest scoring language was Quality Time. yes...most ppl (i would dare say) have QT as their primary or dominant love language. Then followed by i can't remember anymore. i probably put Physical Touch (such as hugging and touches that are not out of context, in watever context u are in.)as the last. After Wei's wedding, i realize my love language has been changed to Acts Of Service...as i think back, i realized that i din't say much to Wei or give her a hug but i showed my love for her by helping out at the wedding..making sure most things are running smoothly..and i helped out with the deco..spent time just making the walkway nice...perfectionist touch..haha...man...i ran around a lot and talked a lot to a lot of ppl...u can see the stress on my face!

ok...so i think my 2nd love language is quality time....i enjoy spending time with friends and family..doing watever be it dinner, mamak, movies, hiking, jogging, swimming, dancing, window shopping, plain lepaking...

then followed by gifts and physical touch and lastly words of encouragement...u know y i put words last...cos most of the time when ppl commend me for doing a great job or sang well...or just say i'm pretty, beautiful...i dun take it well...not that i dun welcome it...i just dunno how to receive it...and sometimes i even forget wat they say!tho i try desperately to remember..i'm very sensitive to compliments bcos sincerity is very important to me. if the compliment wasn't said sincerely, i won't receive it....
of course, i enjoy getting gifts...be it small or edible...of course must be stuff i like wan lar..
and hugs.....at a time when i was really down....a hug really lifts me up again...a hug says a thousand words.....a hug makes me feel loved and secure...again...depend on the quality of hugs i get...some r just for gesture only...so touch a little only...then some which gives u bear hugs!i feel like a teddy bear....being loved...haha
so.....if u wanna show u love me and appreciate me....do stuff for me....take me go jalan-jalan, wash my car...fix my electronic stuffs...be the person i can call for help..hehe...etc...be creative...think of something...haha