having my dinner halfway...just din't have the appetite to eat...a few thoughts on my mind...
I am either blessed or am a blessing...
what i am trying to say is that in life, i am either a blessing to someone or i need to be blessed by someone who will be a blessing to me.hahaha...macam so philosophical kan...hahahaha...=D
some blogs are fun to read...some are just pure emo such that you must be mentally prepared when you read it..
am getting really random here...
i thank God for friends who are around when you need their company and encouragement and laughter...friends who just loves you just as you are and enjoys your company...i can be really bratty and they will just ignore me but later make fun of me...its nice being spoilt sometimes but also depends on who i am hanging out with la...if with another 'kid' then gosh...i'll feel left out..haha..
yeap..so...friends mean a lot to me...because they are like my extended family(if we're close enough)i hope i can be there for them when they need a friend...wow...macam lagu pernah dengar...
do you know that my neighbour teaches piano and i think he or she plays the saxophone too??so cool kan...must get some friends and just jam some jazzy stuff with them...then i can practice singing too..hahahahahhahahaa..ok...randommmmm...sounds like Sam W =P
Monday, April 13, 2009
Saturday, April 11, 2009
Flying roaches and...
Yesterday was Good Friday, 10 April 2009. I just got home and it was a pretty good day for me...after 2 weeks of having my inbox jammed everyday cos of 80 emails daily asking questions for a simple thing and ppl replying with thanks or great or wonderful or please reply her(like duh!!!) and then just asking for clarification and confirmation....so, i'm very happy that normally in one hour, i receive 10-20 emails, but today for the whole day i only received 10 emails =D cos it was Good Friday in 90% of the offices worldwide and we poor West Malaysian don't have such holidays!!!=/ anyways, its a breather for me as i can take it easy and do my other work(which has been piling bcos of those emails and the horrible Excel sheets which must be updated daily and also my associate manager's work requests-__-)
Today we had a dept meeting...it finally dawned on me today why i din't pass my first interview in March 08 with this new company. I found out that the April 08 batch went to the Phillipines for training and my colleague who was at this training had to live with flying cockroaches in the class where they were being trained and also cockroaches crawling up the wall in their classroom...ewww...>_< Thank God i din't get selected to go in that April batch...if i did, i would have the most horrible time in my life >_<>
So for that, the 'reward' is.......i got to go to Taiwan! where everything is clean and i din't see a single roach crawling in the classroom^_^ even my hotel room is clean and air-conditioned.
God is so amazing kan...He already knows my need...even before i say it.
You're the BEST!!!^^
Today we had a dept meeting...it finally dawned on me today why i din't pass my first interview in March 08 with this new company. I found out that the April 08 batch went to the Phillipines for training and my colleague who was at this training had to live with flying cockroaches in the class where they were being trained and also cockroaches crawling up the wall in their classroom...ewww...>_< Thank God i din't get selected to go in that April batch...if i did, i would have the most horrible time in my life >_<>
So for that, the 'reward' is.......i got to go to Taiwan! where everything is clean and i din't see a single roach crawling in the classroom^_^ even my hotel room is clean and air-conditioned.
God is so amazing kan...He already knows my need...even before i say it.
You're the BEST!!!^^
Sunday, April 5, 2009
2009 Revo Penang...
Can't think of a funkier title..haha..
It was awesome!it was better than last year's..haha..sorry ler...compare like that...we had more food..chee cheong fun, char kuey teow, popiah, egg tarts, pau(which we din't eat cos we were fasting!), fruits, tom yam, chinese pancake, lobak...yummy...
The first nite on Friday was in FGA Air Itam, it rained before the event and people started to trickle in after 7.30pm. Started at 8pm and it was my first time singing in REVO! so i was pretty excited..but the crowd wasn't...as excited as i thought they would be. nevertheless, after Pastor preached the message, the last song was so rocking good that i was shocked to see some ppl on our team, rocking it too! i mean..hello..these people stand straight and don't move when they play in church service but went wild in REVO...ahaha..u know who you are.
As for me, i was enjoying myself...i jumped a lot so that they would jump as well but they din't really followwwwwww meeee...was awesome seeing the drummer drumming his best despite being in-knee-ed. hahahahaha...acoustic guitarist cum WL aka Joel V. kinda lost his voice after leading and once again during supper time, as it had always been in his tradition, his Char kuey teow din't come so he had to eat Chinese pancake with choc in it. Talking about food, tom yam was highly recommended in Telok Bayan but i din't have it cos i din't want to lose my voice completely. i absolutely loved the lo bak but there was none left-__-
char kuey teow was overrated and i'm never gonna have it there the NEXT time...
I met some of the girls which i got to know of last year and got to know new girls this year!woohoo!nice meeting them..they r so cute.( i mean personality wise)
I was encouraged to learn that the EPCC started their own dance crew (called Storm) and band (Point of Difference) bcos of Revo last year and they also wrote their own songs!very good...this is what Revo is for!!!for new things to be birthed out! not just a feel good session!
After lunch with the pastors on Sat, miss Eu was so kind to ask her mom to buy the famous chee cheong fun and char kuey teow for us!!!it was sooo nice!this is what you call Penang food!!!
After that, when we went to EPCC to get ready, their sandwich din't taste as good as last nite's(cos on Fri nite we were starving!cos we din't have a good lunch)
Overall, i thank God for the friends made and that were on this trip. my seat mates and surrounding seat mates and roomies. You guys and girls are really cool..talking about band tours and sharing your life stories. You made it really enjoyable for me and i enjoy serving with them=)
As for my sleeping buddies, thank God you girls stayed over or i would've dragged myself out of bed to church and prolly looked half dead during church service...surprisingly, i didn't feel tired at all and i looked like i had a good night sleep!well..looked almost.
indeed, the Holy Spirit is my helper. Last trip, i skipped the morning service while everyone on my team went to church!i felt so guilty...and i reasoned saying i don't have enough sleep and its ok to miss it cos got evening service also.
So, indeed, Holy Spirit is my helper..^_^
oh..i have another testimony, on Thurs morning i woke up at 5am with an excruciating pain in my stomach, such that you get cold sweat and feel nauseous and vomit a little. First few things on my mind was 'oh no!i wanna go Revo Penang!i can't miss it!'
After that, i was thinking if i should go to the hospital and then prayed in my heart, By His stripes i am healed!Kept repeating that..mom put some ointment on my tummy and eventually, i feel asleep as the pain subsides..saw the doctor in the morning and took the medication and then remmebered that on Fri we're supposed to fast breakfast together as a team. i was thinking perhaps i could just eat my medicine only and drink milo and basically i was thinking how not to fast. perhaps they would understand. but then i felt like...this is so faithless! i remember 1 person's testimony on how she was healed of gastric by choosing to fast. i wanted a testimony of my own too, but i was also afraid of wat my mom would say to me if i don't have my breakfast on Friday morning. So i choose to wake up like real last min such that my mom coudln't ask me if i had my breakfast and all. it worked!i rushed to go to church adn my mom din't manage to ask me at all..and basically on Friday, i fasted breakfast...i din't have any food to eat or milo to drink all the way till lunch time, praise God!i didn't have any burning sensation in my tummy or pain and i din't take may medication at all!Zilch...none.i continue to claim for complete healing...up till now also no pain and no gastric!^_^
It was awesome!it was better than last year's..haha..sorry ler...compare like that...we had more food..chee cheong fun, char kuey teow, popiah, egg tarts, pau(which we din't eat cos we were fasting!), fruits, tom yam, chinese pancake, lobak...yummy...
The first nite on Friday was in FGA Air Itam, it rained before the event and people started to trickle in after 7.30pm. Started at 8pm and it was my first time singing in REVO! so i was pretty excited..but the crowd wasn't...as excited as i thought they would be. nevertheless, after Pastor preached the message, the last song was so rocking good that i was shocked to see some ppl on our team, rocking it too! i mean..hello..these people stand straight and don't move when they play in church service but went wild in REVO...ahaha..u know who you are.
As for me, i was enjoying myself...i jumped a lot so that they would jump as well but they din't really followwwwwww meeee...was awesome seeing the drummer drumming his best despite being in-knee-ed. hahahahaha...acoustic guitarist cum WL aka Joel V. kinda lost his voice after leading and once again during supper time, as it had always been in his tradition, his Char kuey teow din't come so he had to eat Chinese pancake with choc in it. Talking about food, tom yam was highly recommended in Telok Bayan but i din't have it cos i din't want to lose my voice completely. i absolutely loved the lo bak but there was none left-__-
char kuey teow was overrated and i'm never gonna have it there the NEXT time...
I met some of the girls which i got to know of last year and got to know new girls this year!woohoo!nice meeting them..they r so cute.( i mean personality wise)
I was encouraged to learn that the EPCC started their own dance crew (called Storm) and band (Point of Difference) bcos of Revo last year and they also wrote their own songs!very good...this is what Revo is for!!!for new things to be birthed out! not just a feel good session!
After lunch with the pastors on Sat, miss Eu was so kind to ask her mom to buy the famous chee cheong fun and char kuey teow for us!!!it was sooo nice!this is what you call Penang food!!!
After that, when we went to EPCC to get ready, their sandwich din't taste as good as last nite's(cos on Fri nite we were starving!cos we din't have a good lunch)
Overall, i thank God for the friends made and that were on this trip. my seat mates and surrounding seat mates and roomies. You guys and girls are really cool..talking about band tours and sharing your life stories. You made it really enjoyable for me and i enjoy serving with them=)
As for my sleeping buddies, thank God you girls stayed over or i would've dragged myself out of bed to church and prolly looked half dead during church service...surprisingly, i didn't feel tired at all and i looked like i had a good night sleep!well..looked almost.
indeed, the Holy Spirit is my helper. Last trip, i skipped the morning service while everyone on my team went to church!i felt so guilty...and i reasoned saying i don't have enough sleep and its ok to miss it cos got evening service also.
So, indeed, Holy Spirit is my helper..^_^
oh..i have another testimony, on Thurs morning i woke up at 5am with an excruciating pain in my stomach, such that you get cold sweat and feel nauseous and vomit a little. First few things on my mind was 'oh no!i wanna go Revo Penang!i can't miss it!'
After that, i was thinking if i should go to the hospital and then prayed in my heart, By His stripes i am healed!Kept repeating that..mom put some ointment on my tummy and eventually, i feel asleep as the pain subsides..saw the doctor in the morning and took the medication and then remmebered that on Fri we're supposed to fast breakfast together as a team. i was thinking perhaps i could just eat my medicine only and drink milo and basically i was thinking how not to fast. perhaps they would understand. but then i felt like...this is so faithless! i remember 1 person's testimony on how she was healed of gastric by choosing to fast. i wanted a testimony of my own too, but i was also afraid of wat my mom would say to me if i don't have my breakfast on Friday morning. So i choose to wake up like real last min such that my mom coudln't ask me if i had my breakfast and all. it worked!i rushed to go to church adn my mom din't manage to ask me at all..and basically on Friday, i fasted breakfast...i din't have any food to eat or milo to drink all the way till lunch time, praise God!i didn't have any burning sensation in my tummy or pain and i din't take may medication at all!Zilch...none.i continue to claim for complete healing...up till now also no pain and no gastric!^_^
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Of blue skies and green paddy fields..
its beautiful place...but not for work! Experienced the kindness of strangers from the natives...its..amazing...
cramps again...but its so much longer than normal..=/
so glad its over...din't have good feeling about this trip...but amidst it all...God answered my prayers and i'm finally home sweet home..never missed home this much...-_-
cramps again...but its so much longer than normal..=/
so glad its over...din't have good feeling about this trip...but amidst it all...God answered my prayers and i'm finally home sweet home..never missed home this much...-_-
Sunday, March 15, 2009
Yesteryears...
it seemed so long ago...but it was only 3 months ago...that i revisited my campus in Adelaide.
As i walked the path from my old house (where my housemate still stays in after 5 long years i left), i could hear the silence...i see houses but there were no sign of human until i reached the main road where there were people eating and walking and cars passing by but i felt so alone.
Thank God i have a friend walking with me...
Then we reached our university and newly graduated graduates were around taking photos with their family members and friends near the river, on the foot bridge and near the lawn inside the campus...we walked past the library and i remember going there to study during my study week and i would be there from morning 9-10am till night at 8pm. After the library closed, i will walk to the student support services to take the bus home and i remember it will always be dark and cold when i sit in the bus ( but its actually a van that can seat 12-15 ppl) and sometimes wait for a long time just to reach home cos these buses send you straight to your doorstep. There was no warmth being in the library or in the bus. Maybe that's why i don't really like it when i walked past that place again...
I thought i would be so happy to see my university again and just walking past them i would be filled with happy memories but i didn't really remember the joy and as i looked back now, i wondered how did i survive those years...
One thing i clearly remember was the fellowship and gathering that i had with my friends in Adelaide. We would go to each other's house and cook up something delicious like carbonara (by Kris Ho), bak kut teh(by Bernard and John), curry chicken(Elaine), Red Rock deli(by Yenni-well she didn't cook it but she does cook something which i don't remember now.hahaha), Chinese food ( by Lok Ing and ChuChu and Wilson) and i think i contributed in making 'tong 'sui'. oh!and crabs too!(by Samuel).
Our favorite foods were the Vietnamese food on Addison Road, bubble tea in Central Market, chocolate croissant in Baker's Delight, sweet green grapes, cherries and persimmon in the Central Market, Kabana( a type of sausage) in Central Market, cheddar cheese, milk, juice, Boost juice(overrated but nice drink), chips! and chocolate and pies, chicken schnitzel in Paradise Cafe, choclate or coffee drink from the cafes, gelati from Cibo, dim sum from Dong something place...I think that's all i can remember for now.
Maybe that's why i put on weight!but then again, its cold over there so need the extra fats ^_^
ok...back to the point, friends make my stay in Adelaide wonderful. and we still keep in touch till now...having a good church helps as well...and overall, it was a good experience lar...
road trips and beaches are beautiful there...erm...my thoughts are not flowing anymore...its time to sleep...nite nite!
As i walked the path from my old house (where my housemate still stays in after 5 long years i left), i could hear the silence...i see houses but there were no sign of human until i reached the main road where there were people eating and walking and cars passing by but i felt so alone.
Thank God i have a friend walking with me...
Then we reached our university and newly graduated graduates were around taking photos with their family members and friends near the river, on the foot bridge and near the lawn inside the campus...we walked past the library and i remember going there to study during my study week and i would be there from morning 9-10am till night at 8pm. After the library closed, i will walk to the student support services to take the bus home and i remember it will always be dark and cold when i sit in the bus ( but its actually a van that can seat 12-15 ppl) and sometimes wait for a long time just to reach home cos these buses send you straight to your doorstep. There was no warmth being in the library or in the bus. Maybe that's why i don't really like it when i walked past that place again...
I thought i would be so happy to see my university again and just walking past them i would be filled with happy memories but i didn't really remember the joy and as i looked back now, i wondered how did i survive those years...
One thing i clearly remember was the fellowship and gathering that i had with my friends in Adelaide. We would go to each other's house and cook up something delicious like carbonara (by Kris Ho), bak kut teh(by Bernard and John), curry chicken(Elaine), Red Rock deli(by Yenni-well she didn't cook it but she does cook something which i don't remember now.hahaha), Chinese food ( by Lok Ing and ChuChu and Wilson) and i think i contributed in making 'tong 'sui'. oh!and crabs too!(by Samuel).
Our favorite foods were the Vietnamese food on Addison Road, bubble tea in Central Market, chocolate croissant in Baker's Delight, sweet green grapes, cherries and persimmon in the Central Market, Kabana( a type of sausage) in Central Market, cheddar cheese, milk, juice, Boost juice(overrated but nice drink), chips! and chocolate and pies, chicken schnitzel in Paradise Cafe, choclate or coffee drink from the cafes, gelati from Cibo, dim sum from Dong something place...I think that's all i can remember for now.
Maybe that's why i put on weight!but then again, its cold over there so need the extra fats ^_^
ok...back to the point, friends make my stay in Adelaide wonderful. and we still keep in touch till now...having a good church helps as well...and overall, it was a good experience lar...
road trips and beaches are beautiful there...erm...my thoughts are not flowing anymore...its time to sleep...nite nite!
Friday, March 13, 2009
Truly Malaysian...
I thought i had seen all there are to see in Malaysia...types of people who are called Malaysian...
today i saw a glimpse of what most Malaysians would do...travel by airplane for a business trip.
I went to Kuantan by air today...it was a fast ride...and scariest by far...not sure if its because the pilot's name is Morgan...it could be Indian...or it could be...something else..
anyways...we went thru a turbulence..at first i was ok...bcos its normal to experience a bit of turbulence...but this was different....i could feel my heart drop twice...its like sitting in a roller coaster...you can feel it when the roller coaster suddenly drops down the track.That's how it felt like...and for once...i was asking myself if i was ready to be with the Lord !_!
My answer.........no!not yet!I haven't told my parents that i really care for them>_<
and then it dawned on me that dying REALLY does put life into perspective...
4 years ago...i was in kuantan for a 'sabbatical'..haha...yeah...funny that i'm using that word.and today...it felt like another 'sabbatical' that was unplanned..again after the storm. i saw the sunrise the other time..and today i saw sunset...i think...its time for a new beginning...well..i really hope so..cos i don't like running in circles...so ber-parable ar my post today...
seeeeeee..how truly malaysian i have become and experienced...
today i saw a glimpse of what most Malaysians would do...travel by airplane for a business trip.
I went to Kuantan by air today...it was a fast ride...and scariest by far...not sure if its because the pilot's name is Morgan...it could be Indian...or it could be...something else..
anyways...we went thru a turbulence..at first i was ok...bcos its normal to experience a bit of turbulence...but this was different....i could feel my heart drop twice...its like sitting in a roller coaster...you can feel it when the roller coaster suddenly drops down the track.That's how it felt like...and for once...i was asking myself if i was ready to be with the Lord !_!
My answer.........no!not yet!I haven't told my parents that i really care for them>_<
and then it dawned on me that dying REALLY does put life into perspective...
4 years ago...i was in kuantan for a 'sabbatical'..haha...yeah...funny that i'm using that word.and today...it felt like another 'sabbatical' that was unplanned..again after the storm. i saw the sunrise the other time..and today i saw sunset...i think...its time for a new beginning...well..i really hope so..cos i don't like running in circles...so ber-parable ar my post today...
seeeeeee..how truly malaysian i have become and experienced...
Sunday, March 1, 2009
Little Miss Wise 3...
I feel like blogging but i don't know what to talk about...its raining outside now and its cooling...
My new place is almost done up and i can't wait to move in there...its got a fresh coat of paint and new automated door. No more getting down from the car to open the door...i love it...
i found out yesterday that the color of my room(the feature wall) is the same as the toilet walls.
-__- oh well...i din't want to put another coat of paint but today my dad told me that we can still paint a new color free of charge...i just need to pay for the paint not the labor...so niweis...i din't really bother about it and my mom decided to decide for me and chose something pink.>_<>
This coming week is gonna pretty busy for me but though i know its gonna be busy, God will somehow make it bearable for me...cos i experienced His...goodness towards me last Thurs. I was expecting a hectic day on Thurs and i was pretty distracted during vocal lesson on Wed nite as i wanted to go home quickly to read up on my project as the training is on Thurs early morning. But as i reached work early on Thurs, i found out that my training has been postponed to Friday...which gives me more time to read and breathe...wow...its amazing...and then the no. of doctors that i'm supposed to find has been reduced from 8 to 6. which is even better cos i only have 5 and i'm hoping for 3 more doctors. Its not easy...because of the timeline and the fact that this will be my 1st project and i have absolutely no experience in it.
To make matters worse, i started to fall sick and not only that...i have other problems to handle..if i call that a problem ie matters of the mind...sigh...
Though i want to excel in my career/work...ministry and church will always be 1st in my heart...i cannot bear the thought of doing all the work of the world and not of God as i believe God's work is everlasting...and brings more fulfilment. But that doesn't mean i want to do badly at work...i choose to do well at work to demonstrate that God is with me at work and when you have God, you are always at the winning side...hahaha...He will always work things out for me...just like last Thursday's...yes...i do encounter hard times but i choose to press on...sometimes i ask..why is it so hard?why can't You just make this all disappear? i know You can...but sometimes He doesn't...but i still press on...asking for strength and help...because to have Him is better than not having Him...
hmm...perhaps now i should also ask for blessing and 'mountains' to be removed...
tomorrow...expecting the busyness and yet at the same time for His grace and mercy...
His mercies are new every morning...
i'm thankful to be called His Child...
ps. check out Planetshakers-I Just Want You...i think can d/load kua...not sure...
http://www.rhapsody.com/planetshakers
My new place is almost done up and i can't wait to move in there...its got a fresh coat of paint and new automated door. No more getting down from the car to open the door...i love it...
i found out yesterday that the color of my room(the feature wall) is the same as the toilet walls.
-__- oh well...i din't want to put another coat of paint but today my dad told me that we can still paint a new color free of charge...i just need to pay for the paint not the labor...so niweis...i din't really bother about it and my mom decided to decide for me and chose something pink.>_<>
This coming week is gonna pretty busy for me but though i know its gonna be busy, God will somehow make it bearable for me...cos i experienced His...goodness towards me last Thurs. I was expecting a hectic day on Thurs and i was pretty distracted during vocal lesson on Wed nite as i wanted to go home quickly to read up on my project as the training is on Thurs early morning. But as i reached work early on Thurs, i found out that my training has been postponed to Friday...which gives me more time to read and breathe...wow...its amazing...and then the no. of doctors that i'm supposed to find has been reduced from 8 to 6. which is even better cos i only have 5 and i'm hoping for 3 more doctors. Its not easy...because of the timeline and the fact that this will be my 1st project and i have absolutely no experience in it.
To make matters worse, i started to fall sick and not only that...i have other problems to handle..if i call that a problem ie matters of the mind...sigh...
Though i want to excel in my career/work...ministry and church will always be 1st in my heart...i cannot bear the thought of doing all the work of the world and not of God as i believe God's work is everlasting...and brings more fulfilment. But that doesn't mean i want to do badly at work...i choose to do well at work to demonstrate that God is with me at work and when you have God, you are always at the winning side...hahaha...He will always work things out for me...just like last Thursday's...yes...i do encounter hard times but i choose to press on...sometimes i ask..why is it so hard?why can't You just make this all disappear? i know You can...but sometimes He doesn't...but i still press on...asking for strength and help...because to have Him is better than not having Him...
hmm...perhaps now i should also ask for blessing and 'mountains' to be removed...
tomorrow...expecting the busyness and yet at the same time for His grace and mercy...
His mercies are new every morning...
i'm thankful to be called His Child...
ps. check out Planetshakers-I Just Want You...i think can d/load kua...not sure...
http://www.rhapsody.com/planetshakers
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