25 years and 8 months...

that's how long i've been staying in Subang and stayed in this house...maybe longer if you count the time i was conceived...hehe...

i can't believe it...i feel sad...i dun wan to think about this...but i have to face the facts...i wan to be ignorant...i wan to feel like it doesn't matter...ohh....i dunno how to express it...

on the other hand, i've got so much stuff to move!all the little things like....er...hair bands,earrings, clothes!, books, cds...board games...man...these stuff that has been with me since young...shall i throw them or keep them? i know i won't bring it to heaven with me...so in the end its all useless...so....wat shall i do?keep or throw??how do i decide wat to keep and wat to throw?all are not that useful...haha...like i still keep the bag pack i used to bring to kindergarten.its Smurf ok?!so cute...and got my name written on it...pencil boxes and pencils...got lots of nice ones..and of course most r rusty here and there..my piano teacher and friends gave them to me....throw?keep?then got a pair of roller skates...keep or throw?

and pictures!lots of pictures!from Aus...which i never bother rearranging it...the photo albums are so expensive!!RM20-40 just for 1 album!wat a rip off...but they are nice lar...then i have photo frames...told myself to put my best pictures in it...but....i din't even print it out from my digital camera......lazy?maybe...have to be...haha...wat else...

gosh...i'm gonna miss my home....where i grew up....played getah, drawed lines on the pavement, my doggie, used the wall as my ping pong practice ground and badminton too...did my gymnastics at home and practicing my taekwondo....annoyed my dog with the basketball and ping pong...seeing my dog go berserk at the sound of balls..haha...waited for my school bus under the tree that bears fruit that looks a bit like starfruit...wow...i used to be so active at home..now i just sit at home to watch tv or go online...no wonder i was so skinny...haha..

Hi Lok Ing, Congrats Bernard and Dora!!See you soon!

Lok Ing came back to KL for Bernard and Dora's wedding on 12 May 2007. it was a blast spending time with her and being her driver...hehehe.....we catched up and she stayed with me...usually she would fall asleep first and i would still be talking...gosh...so much to say....

was really blessed to have her around...its like being in Adelaide again when i was studying there...we ate a lot.....shop a little which was a miracle cos the last time she came, she bought a lot of shoes...shall not tell u how many pairs =) she came to KL on thurs nite (10 May) then straight went to Murni,SS2..on Sat 12 May was the wedding...we 'thrashed' Bernard before we allow him into the house...made him wear a bikini top(over his clothing lar...we not so bad one...) and his best buddies to wear bibs. then made them eat baby food ie creamed spinach and sweet potato and carrots....Edwin had difficult time swallowing the spinach...David T. gulped down the whole this...hahaha...finally...we made them dance the Banana dance!all 3 must shake their butts or they can't come in!.....then...we let them in.......=D

now...after all this...Lok Ing went back to Brunei and came back to KL before flying off to Adelaide....so she was back in KL on Fri nite...picked her up...we talked a lot....shared a lot...ate a lot too....she's been telling me she felt sad that she was leaving us...but i din't exactly understand until today Sat...send her to airport...and as i see her off.....i felt sad and felt like crying....and i was already missing her....then she dropped her sweater and din't know it fell..frantically searching for my phone and was gonna dial her no when she turned back and picked it up and waved the final bye..haha..did i say i was sad?hahaha....i wish i could be in Adelaide too....i wish i could work there....i wish...i wish...i wish...i miss her heaps.....I thank God for blessing me with a friend like her...miss you girl!!

Bentong Waterfall

hey again...yeah...had a picnic by the waterfall in Bentong called Air Terjun Chamang. It was on 2 May and a public hol. Sooooooo many ppl were there....but we managed to get a nice spot..=)
it was so fun...i dunno how to begin describing it.....

we met at David's house at 8am. then went for DimSum at Taman Megah. Then at 9.15am we left for Bentong...it was about 1 hour drive away from KL...then we had ice cream on ice kacang cendol in Bentong...then looked for durian and found mangosteen and bought it.so expensive...2kg for Rm10. anyway...we were then on our way to the waterfall...enjoy the photos..

the group that went.Lucas took this photo=)

the waterfall was really nice and scary at the same time...water was flowing so fast....it scares me just to be near it...but we 'camped' downstream where the current wasn't so strong..

Jecy prepared the food for picnic...it was superbly delicious and healthy!pita bread and tortilla and roast chicken with mayo and tomato cherries...and lettuce which was gently washed (or caressed) by Mich Gan..hahaha..we had ice lemon tea or ice peach tea...ahhhhh....good to relieve 'heatiness'...haha

the guys...just being guys..

posers.....

I'm glad=)

I'm glad i have food to eat, car to drive, friends to hang out with, friends to laugh and cry with, computer that can go online, bed to sleep, money to spend, church to attend, job that pays ok, parents that cares, tv to watch!

i should thank God for all the blessings and blessings in disguise He has given me.

i'm very full now because i had dinner at Wai Sek kai in SS2. then went to the mamak area for fried oysters and squid(must go to uncle stall). So i'm in a thankful mood=)

i do realize that i tend to blog when i'm down...its sort of my release 'place'.but now i want to also blog of the happy times i have in my life....er...we'll just end here for now..am goin to climb Gunung Nuang so more stories and pictures. oh...another thing i was grateful for was my colleague kindly switched her annual leave for me so that i can attend Bernard's wedding!God bless her abundantly and exceedingly in her life. she's very studious. She's sowing her 'seeds' now and one day she will reap the 'fruit'.in her work i mean=)

where am i sowing mine?in friends mainly...i dunno wat kinda fruit i will get..hahaha..lazy to write dy....good nite...

Now i know what people do when they stay at home too long...not doing anything except sleep or be bored....

i did just that on Sat and i took 3 hours nap after i got back from work....i dreamed of some friends and people..weird dreams....then at night i went out for dinner with parents and went online and then did some reading and lots of thinking before i went to bed....and i tell you...it was unproductive!all my thoughts were really nonsense....like...the past...the present...the future...my work...my social life....my blog...its just not worth mentioning...cos its like moving backwards...

so i should be grateful that i have friends that i can hang out with and talk to...
man....life is a bit meaningless and purposeless for now....its just getting by.....

Chuckle...a little..

yeah...i was chuckling..i was reading my blog and i found it to be rather interesting to read...then i read my friendster's 'info about me' and i can't believe i actually cracked a joke there...i din't know i was that funny...but it was funny...i'm still chuckling now...hahahahahahaha....i mean ppl tell me i'm funny but i just don't realize it..

so...remember yesterday's patient which i forgot about??well...he came today and he's perfectly fine!at least in my part...no abnormalities found in him..i mean his brain waves...phew..huge relieve.

so yesterday i said i made a mistake...actually it wasn't a mistake...it was a BAD decision...then i started to think that being a leader isin't easy.......imagine if your leader makes a bad decision.....will u still support him/her?being a follower myself....i've seen or watched in movies or heard or read in the newspaper of leaders who make bad decision, i feel its so unfair to their followers...they have to bear the consequences if they choose to still follow the leader or maybe its their own honour and integrity at stake..imagine in a war, instead of advancing forward, u back out.....its a topic with too many areas to cover...so...i had my taste of being a leader today...

so, since my senior no longer works in the afternoons, i am the next in line.so i take care of the lab and arrange for patients to come for their tests.so...today i sorta 'reminded' my colleague that she needed to do her work tho she has some assignments to do...cos she was planning to go home early.well...its nothing wrong to go back early cos she's taking her lunch time but last min got 1 patient which i had to turn down bcos i can't do it cos i got other patients and i din't wan to go home late(yeah...irresponsible)and no one else can do it besides 2 of us. so i felt kinda bad for turning that patient down and it also means that tomorrow(being a Saturday!) will be very busy cos the patients we turn down today will come back tmr and tmr has got its own work load too!!!so, i told her nicely and i think she din't take it nicely. I told her i did think bout her assignment and that's why i turned that patient down and hope that next time she won't do it again...its just hard...trying to please both sides...she was free from 3ish and she hasn't taken her lunch break so i tot she should take it so that when she comes back from her break, it will be 4 ish and still got time to do 1 last patient before she leaves at 5.30 and i can clear up after her. u know..i was thinking of her needs and i dun feel appreciated cos of her reaction.well...work is from 9-6pm, so watever u have u just got to do it later or just take the day off.easier said than done cos sometimes i'm guilty of that too...but who is perfect....

so being a leader isn't easy....firstly, u yourself have to set the example for ppl to follow which i constantly slack...and secondly, telling ppl they r wrong and showing them the right direction won't make u feel appreciated.its more like 'stop telling me wat to do!'

Still..

ok.....i'm still in the 'down' mode...hopefully it will be over soon...i wan to be happy and smiley and cheerful and chirpy and having a great time in my life...

hey andrew...thanks for the comment..very happy that u dropped a comment..i think i'm doing great outside but maybe not so great inside...=)

so...lets see...past 2 weeks i've been scolding ppl...for your info, i dun feel nice scolding ppl cos i try to have grace with ppl who makes mistakes cos i'm not always rite also mar..
so at work, i scolded one clerk, annoyed with another clerk, irritated with a colleague and i-can't-believe-it how some colleagues can be so selfish that they leave THEIR work to other ppl while they have tea.or read their books.OR even worse, go home on time when there are still patients around waiting for tests to be done on them!so sometimes i have to stay back lor...but not all the time...too much complain....nothing much can be done...their ways are dead set. just have to live with it.....in other words, IRRESPONSIBLE.

so u see, i may be irresponsible on certain days too cos maybe i'm tired cos had a long practice the nite b4 or watched midnite movies or i had a sore throat or i had a heart issue...u know..the lists goes on....so i try to overlook the times when ppl slack cos i do too. so, maybe all this is eating me up...maybe i din't overlook it and its coming out of me now....by SCOLDING ppl...or get really annoyed with patients who cannot read time(90% of the patients come late when given an appointment. About 70% of those come 10-30 mins late, 20% on time*applaud*, 5 % more than 1 HOUR LATE and 5% dun turn up.

then...today, i made a MISTAKE ( not that i never made one but can cover up or not so serious type) i totally overlooked a patient that was waiting for his turn to do his test and i gave that time to another patient!AND guess wat...i refused to stay back to do the job...oh..that's not irresponsible cos we have the right to go back on time and fortunately, this patient wasn't an urgent case...at least i dun think so!!!so...tmr....dunno how...pray hard now that he's not a serious case cos late treatment may not be so good on the patient....seeeeeee.....wat a heavy burden i carry each day...