To get things off my chest...

aaaah...another colleague left today. One of my closest friend in office...known him for almost 2 years. helpful and talkative and have a mind of his own...sometimes good, sometimes not but it depends on how he wants to live his life...gave him Nine book by Pastor K and message-to-go and church bulletin..hopefully he'll visit acts SG.

sigh...its quite disheartening to have people close to you leave...its not a bad thing..not for them and i shouldn't stop them either..no..let God do a new thing in their lives and mine...

I'm suddenly the most senior person in my department after my managers.senior in terms of experience..i have almost 2 years while the rest about a year or less.oh wells...i got to buck up...and finish my online trainings.hehehe...

been really tired...physically and emotionally..drained..trying to make ppl happy..trying to meet their expectations..trying to stay in control of some situations...trying to get my act right...trying to do everything at 1 time...trying to rush work so that i can leave office...trying..to run..but not stopping to savour the moment..and see the blue skies and watch the sunset..

do you realize that the sunset is always different...its never the same..

anyways..i realize that i can't take farewells well..i become emotionless...not sure how to react...cos its like...does it make any difference if i were to cry now?maybe not cry would be a better thing...less pain...

aiyo...so the morbid..talking bout pain...i'm so sleepy now...i can't stand it...good nite...YAWNNNN

Would you dare to believe...

Before the morning by Josh Wilson

Do you wonder why you have to,

feel the things that hurt you,

if there's a God who loves you,

where is He now?

Maybe, there are things you can't see

and all those things are happening

to bring a better ending

some day, some how, you'll see, you'll see

Chorus:

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,

that you still have a reason to sing,

'cause the pain you've been feeling,

can't compare to the joy that's coming

So hold on, you got to wait for the light

press on, just fight the good fight

because the pain you've been feeling,

it's just the dark before the morning

Verse

My friend, you know how this all ends

and you know where you're going,

you just don't know how you get there

so just say a prayer.

and hold on, cause there's good who love God,

life is not a snapshot, it might take a little time,

but you'll see the bigger picture

Chorus

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,

that you still have a reason to sing,

'cause the pain you've been feeling,

can't compare to the joy that's coming

so hold on, you got to wait for the light

press on, just fight the good fight

because the pain you've been feeling,

it's just the dark before the morning

yeah, yeah,

before the morning,

yeah, yeah

Once you feel the way of glory,

all your pain will fade to memory

once you feel the way of glory,

all your pain will fade to memory

memory, memory, yeah

Would you dare, would you dare, to believe,

that you still have a reason to sing,

'cause the pain you've been feeling,

can't compare to the joy that's coming

com'n, you got to wait for the light

press on, just fight the good fight

because the pain you've been feeling,

it's just the hurt before the healing

the pain you've been feeling,

just the dark before the morning

before the morning, yeah, yeah

before the morning

Today i feel like Speedie Gonzolos

Well...of course i know the actual spelling but i'm not gonna type it out cos some spammers are just gonna recognize those words and stick some nonsense to my post!!!

SIGH...many thoughts i wish to write down here..perhaps i should go with how i just can't understand why some people's way of doing things is just not the same...

I seriously can't get it...and i guess i just need to be gracious about this...Jess said that we cannot impose our standards on others. which i agree as i remember long long time ago when i first stepped into Acts C, one leader also made the same statement. Giving an example about dressing out best to church. If a 'Pros' stepped into church and her best clothing is prolly a spaghetti top and short skirt, we shouldn't be so quick to judge and conclude anything bad about her. It may not be the best for 'us' but being a newcomer and God's creation, God wouldn't want us to not welcome her just cos of her dressing right...she has every right to be in God's house as anyone.

So yeah...though this is a different issue, i still have to apply this mindset. Which is so hard because i just feel like telling that person or persons to just do it!and remind yourself that you're doing it for God...cos i had to remind myself of that when i have to wake up earlier.SIGH...but if that person did overcome on that on their own cos of God, then i guess it would be a better testimony than to say that i forced that person to do it...

oh wells...

next, up...Italian cooking lessons!yes yes ^_^ coming soon...and of course the ever famous phone for now that starts with I.

i better get back to my work!