The week before New year...

so many things have been happening.......well..1st of all...my ex-housemate from Adelaide came down to Kl to visit us Adelaide gang...wow...its been 4 years since i last saw her...she put on some weight..which she knows..haha..and she bought me a nice top!haven't wear it yet...her name is Chu Chu..nick name..cute rite...=)

then i have Wilson come as well to visit us...we all from the Adelaide gang...man...i was so excited to see him!since it was a busy week for me b4 Christmas and i din't take any leaves...i tried to make time for both of them...as much as i can...(mental note...next yr take leaves during Christmas!!!)

then...it was the Christmas play...we had 3 shows..and it was awesome...get to meet band members from Army of 3, Four letter story and One-ted..it was a good Christmas for me..after the last show on 25 Dec, we went to Jason M's house for lunch and many ppl were there..then impromptu, i sang the song Umbrella with Evan playing the guitar...by request from Jack..haha..cos we did it at Ray's birthday party...haha...to my surprise, i actually enjoyed the attention!!hahahahahaha....

moving on...just tonight had another farewell drinks with Elsa...sobs sobs...she's goin back to Medan...i hope to see her there or she comes back..i dunno..wherever God wants her to be lar...but i plan to visit her...there...yeah...good old friend..will miss you Elsa...never tot the day would come..i think i might just cry at the airport...

Sacrifice for Christmas..

i've never sacrificed so much for an event....this year..the cost is more for me..because:

• i can't spend much time with my Adelaide friends!!-_-' wanna cry dy...they had supper without me...aaaaahhhh...well...cos i was at practice...
• i din't take any leave before Christmas so now i'm suffering....bogged down with work!and no lunch! i hate it...why do these ppl only see the doctors during holidays???argh!go away!!
• lack of sleep...cos i needed time for myself...to do the things i like...like...online...thinking..reading..well..i try to read the Bible every nite..no..i'm not holy. just wanna be a good girl to God..hehe..

i try...to live life..i try to live above wat i feel...i try to live above my circumstances...i try to live according to wat i preach...and try...and somedays its super hard...but hey...human only mar...
no...i dun accept that kinda reasoning tho at times...its really true...we're just human and we do make mistakes and failures...
i'm looking for a balance...oh God....help me...to live the right way.

Emo again...

listening to Home by Chris Daughtry...very nice...so comforting..haha..

had a bad day at work...i get really irritated when i dun get to have my lunch time...and its so sickening that no one helps you then..

emotionally unstable now...can cry anytime...oh man...i hate it when this happens...having absolutely no control of how you feel even though you know that you shouldn't be like this...its like being in a mess and you dunno how you got there...or too much junk we take in and one day the pile seems so heavy that it weighs us down...

God...help...wat have i done wrong?spending too much time in front of the computer?ok...maybe...a little too much..go out too many times a week?erm...cut down dy....
not spending enough time with You?ok...maybe that's the MAIN cause...
i tot my life should be different cos i have You....but...but...i guess i'm still human...and i'm still as sensitive as ever...aaaaaaaaah........dun wan think anymore....
go sleep 1st...not enough hours in a day....

Bubble tea rocks..

yeah..if i have the money, i would like to set up a bubble tea shop. yummy...
check out the cafe..its so nice...its in US...i got the pic from the website...disclaimer thingy..

http://www.houseofaromas.com/

i love the concept of this cafe.haha...yeah...i'm quite westernised..
ooooooooo!then u know wat...can have some lounge music...then i can sing or get ppl to play and sing..waaaaaaaa...i'm dreaming....^_^
yeah...i hardly dream big...awesome...

was reorganizing my stuff and i stumbled upon this..i tot i find this worth thinking about...from church sermon recently..
'The greatest temptation is to be led out of your destiny.'

To justify self righteousness...

i'm offended!so easily offended...i try not justify it but it always brings me to self righteousness..
i din't do anything wrong by coming here...i merely wanted to follow a friend and to observe the happenings of this place...but it wasn't meant for outside observation..as i found out later..
then...i get all worked up when ppl dun do work my way...my way is the fastest and most efficient.
driving...y the stupid fella....cut into my lane...no signal pun....terrible....can't even be decent on the road....aiya...drive so fast, still end up the same...oh my gosh, its peak hour, pls drive faster or the traffic light will turn red!!!

ok...can't think dy..in the morning i can think more cos get worked up more..haha...now brain power slowing down...getting ready to go on stand-by mode.

i think for now, i'll stay in msia....as much as i wish to go aus or other place, my work or the work done in me is still in progress...i dun wanna leave matters unsettled, potentials unveiled.

erm...i just received yet another wedding invitation for next month....-_-
2 on the same day...which 1 to go??Singapore or Klang??
so difficult to decide...both also good friends of mine...but s'pore expensive lar..

i like this photo..look so cute..hehe

50th post....gals and guys

I've reached my 50th post..and i'm in a good mood today..my thoughts are not so clouded with many things and i can feel the sun shining =)

so...why the change?to tell u honestly, i haven't had a good lunch since Mon. I dun even have time to take my lunch break and after i eat, i have to get back to work. Actually, its exciting being busy but i get grumpy when i can't have lunch. And special treat today!i have my 1st bubble tea for the week!ya....maybe the sugar got me high..i had lunch at 4pm but i get 1 hour break!woohoo..and it was time to go home..
i noticed that i can't give definite timing in my work so i always try to give the closest estimate..and in the morning i get bugged by all these calls asking wat time can u test this patient or doctor said must do in the morning or must do today cos patient got SPM....i hate all these excuses because it shows ignorance of the other party to wat and how we do our work. And please, its not like we suddenly come up with new protocols or procedures. Miscommunication is such a big problem and still unsolvable.
Somehow, amidst the busyness and nerve wrecking timing, God just puts everything in place. I dun want to stay back to do OT and God just arranges my timing so i hardly stay back.I din't have to worry and when i did, i only caused more problems.

anyways, after my lunch and since i'm in a good mood, i had a chat with my patient asking wat he does for a living since i noticed his left arm is bigger than the right arm. some fish or seafood thingy...i dunno!i can't make out wat he's saying.i think its some deck work...dragging...pulling...loading seafood and fish.ahhh.....i asked if it pays well...he kinda like sheepishly nodded his head..man...
Why are we studying so hard to get a good job in some nice office???we should be dragging fish from the boat to deck and work only 10+ hour for 10+ days every month with a fat paycheck!

On the other hand, i heard of comments saying church girls are boring and sad to say, some church guys agree!ok..i din't interview all the guys lar...but i hear of this once in a while from guy friends. Then some ppl say church guys are immature...
I just want to say that..being a church girl, i do not think that church guys are immature and certainly i dun agree that church girls are boring. I think they r the beautiful in their own way and mature in certain things tho not everything. I think the guys in church who are commited to God and submit themselves to leadership are made of great stuff. Guys have this desire to be respected and admired and for them to humble themselves, get rid of the prideful ego and say 'I'm committed to God and church and i submit to the leadership appointed over me.' is a respectful trait and definitely not an immature person. They maybe immature in other things but humility is their greatest strength. As for the girls, you just gotta take time to know them that they are not boring creatures adhering to the rules of the church. Instead, allow them time to bloom and help bring out the best in them and u'll see that they are not so boring after all...

Peace...
so this is wat i think now...i wonder if it will change..

I love to....

I love to....multitask. Yes, i do it most times and i feel productive when i can multitask. But i also realized that i'm not actually that productive when i multitask and i actually take longer time to finish my tasks than if i do it one at a time. And sometimes the quality i produced is not that great. But i still love to multitask.

I love to....tell stories in great length and details. When i start talking hyperactively, every single detail i shall try not to miss. I enjoy making ppl laugh and it brings me joy to see them smile or laugh. Especially babies and kids, if they smile back at me, I feel like I hit a jackpot!

Just to promote myself, this is wat i did when i was in my final year studying in Australia.

http://www.adelaide.edu.au/starting/lifestyle/whatsitlike/stories/kailing.html

You give me something...

alright...i went for a high school friend's wedding tonight in Sheraton...a part of me dreaded goin cos i'm thinking its gonna be boring and i have to see my office-_- its like 7 days a week i pass by my office building...so sad...cannot get a way from it.another part just say go lar..its your friend..last time same gang wan...and u'll meet your other friends..can catch up...
and so...i went...and to my horror(okok..maybe unpleasant surprise), all my guy friends brought along wither their wife or gf. i'm like the only girl there with no partner watsoever...dog pun tak de..-_-never mind...stay cool...got other girls coming so dun worry...and yay!my other girlfriends came and they din't bring along their bfs or husband..*_*phew***...as the nite passes by, i must say the wedding was very well organized and entertaining. The theme was Fairytale Wedding so the couple danced as they come in and again on stage and ended the dance by posing on stage with little ballerinas in front of them.They had ballerinas from ballet school to dance and walk in b4 them...
The food was the awesome....
and then i made an observation...i noticed most of my guy friends...they pak tor once and that gf eventually becomes their wife...and mind you, most of them are not Christians...so its like amazing that they r so faithful...(so,SMSJ guys are actually quite faithful.)hahah...i also heard updates of other guy friends that are still goin out with their gfs they had in F5 or F4 or F3 or college or uni...wah....its really impressive.

just a fun fact: my date for prom nite which i 'ditched' b4 prom is now happily registered as a husband to a beautiful wife!!(God remember me!!)

Musically inclined.....

so, i'm classically trained in piano...i still keep in touch with my piano teacher. she tot i would fail in my final grade but amazingly, i din't...i din't recall thinking i would fail but i know i wouldn't get a merit just a pass...and after that, my piano was sold off and i hardly touched the piano...i try to make my fingers run like how i see my friends play...i'm always envious at how easy it seems for them to play cos i never could...or i never tried hard enough.i only played in church once a year for 2 years and those were during Christmas time cos the musicians were from outstation..haha..yeah Acts Church.i remember practicing 1 week in advance b4 the music practice...gosh...i think i still suck at it...nevertheless, it was the best for that Sun worship service...haha..did u know Janet used to play the acoustic guitar and Vinod on the drums and Derrick on bass and sometimes acoustic..i was also the backup vocals then with Joel..we din't know how to play electric guitar then...

anyway, after that i went to Adelaide and joined the choir in Paradise Comm Church for 2 years and i learnt lots then....and i continued in choir back here...i used to dream of starting an all girls band and Yokes was supposed to be in it....then...i tot of playing in a band....but i never did...so now my point in this entry is...i FINALLY got a taste of how its like to sing in a band...ok...so i'm not playing but slowly ler...gosh...wait...i'm not in a band but one kind soul offered to play for me while i sing...wah...its sooooooo fun...its...addictive...so i feel like i'm in a band..haha...its just so fun...its like i got something to do after work and not just go watch movie or eat or church stuff...wah...fun....thank you friend!
maybe...just maybe u'll see me sing in some acoustic nite..if i do, will inform all..haha...

Star dust-y move...

yay!today is public hol...no need to wake up early.i'm so glad i can sleep in...the night b4 i watched Star Dust with Janet in pyramid..we watched the 11.20pm show..wah..late kan..but it was soooooo fun....we sat in the middle row and quite top also lar..best thing is no one sat next to us...so we have like 2 seats for each of us...so sit senget, stretch out our legs..the movie was awesome...we were very much awake and after the movie we analyzed the characters and laughed at the captain and Septimus and Primus and every other thing...gosh..
ok..some guys seem to love Claire Danes...to me, i dun think she acted that great and i dun think she's that beautiful...so i dunno why some guys are like crazy about her..i like the main actor tho...he's good looking and was first a boy then became a man...wah...out of adversity, he rose up and became the man...wah...so leng chai!
i'm glad last nite turn out well....cos i was like smsing so many ppl asking them to watch and myself being indecisive as to when or where and with who to watch with..ask here and there, try to work out timing with diff ppl wahh...its a headache and a waste of money!thus i conclude...indecisiveness wastes resources (if i quoted from anywhere.. sorry lar..i din't know=D)
next time, i'll just stick with 1 group...or 1 person..thank God, Janet decided to join me at a crazy hour to watch movie and she's cool about it...no complains...i dun like ppl who complains or comes bcos was dragged along or forced to go.
hmm...if look at it spiritually, God wants the best for me kan...then here i am trying to make things work with other ppl...and asking here and there...and God have to like follow my every move cos He can make the best out of the worst....so when i make a stupid decision, He may try to correct it but i din't wait to be corrected and off i go to make another stupid decision...so its like hello kid??can u just stop trying to make things work and let Me work it out for you?
this is where 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.' comes in..and 'Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust.'
kodak moment.......

What the...?

i was reading an article from a women's magazine...can't remember wat it was about..and the author wrote this,
'You should keep your mind open but not too open that your brains fall out.'

i'm like..this is sooooooo coooollll!! yeah...i shared it with my PG members...they have this face -_- and i think they asked...wat happened to you?
haha...i think i hang out with my new colleague too much..we gotta stop meeting everyday!haha...noler...not pak tor-ing...but feels like it cos like everyday also talk and see wan...

i love my new couch..its sooo comfortable...and it has 3 little dark brown pillows..for the 1st few days, i'd wake up a little earlier than usual just to lie down on the couch and i look forward to go home after work so i can sit on the couch and watch my fav shows on the tv...yeah...obsessive..have u seen it?no...too bad...u gotta come visit me ; )
now u have an excuse to visit me..not to see me but to see my new couch...haha..=D

My birthday in 2007...

jap restaurant..
ahhh....for the 2nd time in my life, i kena sabo...yes...it was fun...flour and egg...we played some games at the ss17 basketball court...they tricked me into playing a blindfolding game...after i kena sabo, i chased after those ppl that did this to me!!and dumped flour on them...well i tried to...after i had my 'revenge', we played with tanglung...ah...brings back my childhood memories...i love to play with tanglung...i love the glow from the candles and tanglungs..

b4 i kena sabo, i had dinner with a bunch of good friends(also the same ppl that sabo me) in Puchong...then b4 that for lunch i had Japanese food at Rakuzen!yummy!i've been working near Rakuzen for almost 3 years and stayed in Subang for 26 years and i never once step into Rakuzen...so for a moment, history was made..haha..some funny thing happened, when we were infront of the restaurant, the door slide open and i was the last to enter...so i tot i had to close the door and tried to pull the door shut(as i've seen many times b4 whenever i passed by the restaurant) but it wouldn't budge!i pulled so hard i was quite breathless, then i tot i should just leave it..after i let go, the door closed by its on.only then i realized it was an automatic sliding door...and i found out they recently change the door to automatic -_- good thing the place was quite dark cos my face went really hot...we had our own room!just nice for 8 fellas...and we laughed so loud and do stupid things..=D

look at Janet eat!and me posing...

Imagine me dance by Lightbulb..

ok...finally, after months of practice, we finally staged the dance...won't be posting it here..cos haven't upload the video..and dunno how to use Youtube...=D

to us Lightbulbers, it wasn't just a dance.it was meant to be a form of ministry as well.we were praying and hoping the ppl watching would somehow be ministered...breakthroughs, healing, set free....yeah...
we got lots of good feedback like good dancing, you did well...din't know u could dance(uhuh...-_-) so its all good...but if any of you felt ministered to, do let me know...

i was talking to a girl and she told that the dance were good and i looked happy...and even on choir i looked happy...so i guess that's great!haha...i was so paiseh...i'm like...yeah...happy so show happy lor..-_- knock my head if i ever say things like that to u...
i think she was ministered lar...hahaha...awesome..

i know it doesn't just stop at the dance...our lives reflect God as well...so though now we're off stage, i'm reminded to still live my life pleasing to God and i can still pray for others and minister to others though not on stage...yeah...so..may the dance be like a stepping stone to greater things or a platform for greater miracles to come!
wah...i sound like preaching huh...
anyway,the dancers were praying and twice we prayed(from diff ppl who din't know so it must be from God!) using Isaiah 61

"The Spirit of the Lord is upon Me,
Because the Lord has anointed Me
to preach good tidings to the poor;
He has sent Me to heal the brokenhearted,
To proclaim liberty to the captives,
And the opening of the prison to those who are bound;
(v3d)The garment of praise for the spirit of heaviness."

amen...live your life not just as a survivor but more than a conquerer cos that's wat God says we are..

Intermission...

let's write something less stressful besides updates of the trip..got this photo edited..not by me..i can't do this for nuts...for those who r into this kinda thing, pls admire the work done to make the person look beautiful in the pic...haha..and to make the whole pic beautiful...

Padas River-KK trip 07(Part 2)

yeap...after getting down from the mountain (which by the way was more taxing on our legs than hiking up'-_-), we were given a taste of Sabah's durian and buah Talap.Talap looks and tastes a bit like small nangka..on the way to KK town, most of us were tired to our bones and some of us in the van had motion sickness but only 1 other person felt like vomiting. i was very proud that i deposited my vomit at 3000m above sea level and not at the foot of the mountain =D

checked into Radius Hotel, Waterfront..it's a new hotel with only 1 floor and its above a shopping complex. So its pretty convenient to go shopping and Filipino market is just opposite the hotel...about 5 mins walk.The rooms were clean and new. I guess its comfortable cos i'm a pretty fussy person so i have to feel comfortable and like the room.susah wan to go stay in any hotel..haha..had a quick shower and went for dinner at LuYang Restaurant.got seafood and fried pork intestines.it wasn't that great a dinner and got food leftovers....then we went back to our hotel area and had really yummy yogurt icecreams with fruit toppings called YogurBerry*(which will be opened in Pyramid).

The next morning, a bus took us to Beaufort town..journey was 1.5 hours. then from there, we took a really old train with no aircon to the white water rafting spot.The journey itself was wonderful cos the train was travelling along the bank of Padas river most of the time and there were lots of trees and hills and u can see and know for sure we're in the valley...to me,its beautiful...i love natural sceneries.We got off at 1 point to put away our bags and continued a little further up the river to the rafting spot. while waiting for the captains and rowers to be ready, we got to taste langsat freshly plucked from the tree...it was sweet and juicy. After briefing us, i got into the boat with the 'extreme' ppl...ppl that wanted extreme stuff...i'm like...oh no...i dun think i can take it...but i'll just follow...
man...that was the best decision ever!our raft was the most happening...we get pushed of the boat intentionally or unintentionally and almost every fell into the river except for me and alex...me cos i'm such a coward...everytime it looks scary, i just sit inside the boat...haha and held onto the rope...and Alex, i guess his centre of gravity is low which makes him quite stable...hahaha...
me 3rd from the front on the left side.sitting in the boat.blue helmet.

our raft captain was crazy(in a fun way)...he kept jumping off the raft into the river, swim to the other side and tried to pull us down from behind or catch us off guard.then he would climb back into the raft again and before long, he'll jump off again...so hyper...its not easy to get back onto the raft without help and he always climb back up on his own...strong man... there was 1 time they told us to go into the water and i was thinking how to get into the water...so i stood up and i was still thinking when someone just pushed me off the raft...wah....caught off guard but it was fun...the current wasn't strong so it was kinda safe to play in the water...and we all had life jackets.
awesome time....we passed thru 6 rapids and 1 of it, 1 girl Adel fell overboard but was still holding to the rope at the side of the boat, the crazy captain immediately jumped into the river to safe her...wah...no time to think..then another rapid, Lucas fell overboard and the captain stood up to look and say...its ok...that guy can...he is strong....wat contrast...haha...but Lucas was good...he got into body raft position and we tried to throw the rope at him and chase after him on the raft but he was somehow faster than us.After we pulled him up, he said he enjoyed it.hehe..
Then we had lunch amidst the beautiful surroundings on a rumah papan with elevated floor..soon it was time to go home..and we boarded the old choo-choo train and this time, i sat at the entrance(where the door cannot be closed...sorta reminds me of school bus where got conductor stand at the door entrance)so...sat there and enjoyed the view and air...i also went to the back of the train to look at the tracks...it was a beautiful sight....its like...man...so unreal...u never get this kinda stuff back home....i dunno how to express it but i know, it was beautiful to me...
in the old train with villagers from along the railway tracks
so we got back to the hotel and had free and easy nite...had double scoop gelato for the price of 1!!!wahhhh....i took rum and raisin...then just chill out...zzzzzz.....

ps. Thank God for His protection over all 16 of us cos though most fell overboard, none was seriously hurt. when we reached Beaufort station, we saw 2 fellas that got hurt from the rafting. one had a big cut on this calf and another with swollen knee...both needed help walking.

Funny story....=)

just wan to share something funny when i was in KK...
Nathan's bro was given the name Enoch by Alex cos he doesn't have a christian name...so...i was a little unhappy that he simply gave a name to ppl....so i asked Alex,'Why u name him Enoch?' then he said, 'oh...he looks like an Enoch. The name suits him!' and laughed...ok...come to think of it, the name DOES suit him...so i asked Alex to think of a suitable christian name for me...
so, as we were coming down from the mount K, Alex told me he got a name for me.so, i was excited and asked wat the name was. To my dismay, he said Jane. I'm like....wat???Jane??!!i was thinking of plain Jane...so now u think i look like a plain Jane lar!!!...or Jane Doe where nobody knows who that body belongs to...-_- he said...nono...imagine Jane Chee...sounds good ar...and suits you....
noooooo........i said. then lo and behold, the extremely quiet Daryl spoke, 'No, she's a kim.'
We were like..wat?(scratching our head). 'She's a kim', Daryl repeated. 'Kim Chee', he added.
and.....everyone laughed and agreed that was the name for me.
thank you for reading...hahaha...

Kota Kinabalu trip-Mount Kinabalu(Part 1)

after breakfast, posing with our tags.
yep....there's a few part...so i had a great time in KK..on the 1st nite we arrived, we reached Kinabalu Park at 3am!!its about 2 hours drive from airport and it was foggy as we go higher up the mountain..only had maybe 2-3 hours of sleep...actually can't even sleep well cos it was cold...really cold...and the water in the toilet was freezing cold...but we still need to brush our teeth and wash our face....
at 8am, we're all pumped up and ready to conquer the mountain! we started our journey from Timpohon gate at 10.15am and only reached Laban Rata at 3.15pm...supposed to take 4 hours only but i guess with 16 ppl and mostly physically unfit ppl...tend to take longer lar...

for me personally, the physical challenge wasn't the greatest challenge...it was the mental challenge...during the whole time,was just slowly dragging myself up the path...my mind went into all sorts of thinking...negative and positive....and when i started thinking negatively, i felt drained....like there was no strength left in me but when i began to ask God for help(countless times) and tell myself i can do it....it can be done...if God is for us, who can be against us....and all those things lar....i felt lighter and i felt yes...i can do it...
one thing i learnt was..though the task ahead may seem impossible or difficult or big and fear just gripped your heart when u lift up your head to see wat's in front of u...fear can be overcomed by loloknig in front of you and taking a step forward and and forward and forward and towards the finishing line.
it doesn't matter how long it takes as long as u get there....and i do get fearful bcos i dunno if i will die up there by getting hypothermia(extreme cold condition) or my legs just wont' move cos its cold and bcos the weather was so bad, i worry that i'm not properly dressed for the cold and climb.....and i panicked..
at night at Laban Rata, i couldn't sleep much the night cos of the cold and thoughts that i may not make it.eventually, it was almost 2am and had to wake up and dressed up and go for breakfast b4 we start our climb...
bcos i was having anxiety attacks, and maybe cos of altitude sickness, i started to feel nausea and vomited a few times.....the final time i vomit, i vomited everything left in my stomach and almost immediately i felt much better...though weak, i was determined to get to the peak as long as the weather permits...
and so i climbed the steps using all 4 limbs(usually at this stage, can still hike up with both legs and hands are for stabilising only).
then.......some of the guides were doubtful as to whether i can continue on and told them not to force me to go up but i wouldn't give up or chickened out at that point!then, there was this guide( i dunno his name) came to me and told them, i will walk with her. so he held my hand(was wearing gloves cos its cold) and led me up the mountain...wah...i tell you...syok man....tho he was holding my hand, he wasn't dragging me...i still had to use my own strength to walk up the steps but i felt more secure and stable with him holding my hand....sometimes, i find myself starting to think nonsense and i'll start to breathe fast and my heart will pump fast and i felt a little nauseous...but bcos the hand held me firmly...i reminded myself that i'm in safe hands....so the anxiety left and i continued climbing the mountain....
i would say i had it easy cos while everyone was on all fours to climb and to hold the rope, i was just holding his hands and we bypassed everyone....we were so fast that suddenly, i was in front of the group...
during this time, i was reminded of how...yes...i have to climb this mountain...and its not easy...and other ppl also wan to climb this mountain....and its scary too cos its wet...and its only stones and rocks from Laban Rata to the peak...but with God by my side as depicted by this guide...i felt safe and secure and this person isin't like carrying me...i still have to walk thru this journey on my own....and it really comforts me to know that God is like that and He's with me even during the difficult time and even more so He is holding my hand and walking with me thru this journey...reassuring me....making me feel safe...wow.....it just blew me away....knwoing that we may all walk thru the same road....and storms...with God, its so much easier to go thru it....i felt so loved and privileged...hehe
at Laban Rata, behind is the journey to the peak.
so we din't managed to reach the peak due to bad weather...it started to rain when we reached Sayat-sayat....but we still got our cert...3668m. that's the highest we went...
i'm going to try it again next time.....yes!
btw, coming down was more torturous than going up...nevertheless, it was heaps fun...and it took 4 hours only...yeah..by the way,some family...all girls(mother, cousins,aunts?)made it to the peak cos they waited for the rain to stop and when we were leaving Laban Rat, they just got back from the peak...the 4 hours later...i saw 2 of the girls ran down the mountain..and almost caught up with us(the last batch of our 16 ppl coming down from mountain)...i couldn't let that happen!!so i walked faster...haha...they r from overseas..respect the older ladies with them...phew..

Random updates....wow...

yeah...its supposed to be random...anyways...bout my job interview...seems like i din't get it cos my friend that works there told me she saw a new person came in....so i didn't get it...well i din't feel like it was wat i wanted anyway. so now have to wait again and see what comes my way..yeah..felt a little sad but i guess it was expected cos if they were to call me to offer the job, i really dunno wat answer i would give,...then i blame myself for asking for a ridiculously high pay for such a simple job...haha...but tonight after prayer service, one fella gave a testimony of how God answered his prayer for a job by asking for a ridiculously high salary....so i guess i have to wait for my turn...it will come!amen!

then i had my wisdom tooth extracted this morning...i actually felt bad for taking an MC...cos i felt like i was fit to go to work...just not talk much lor...so the whole day till 4pm i was like agonizing over the thought that i should have taken half day mc so afternoon can go to work...or i should have put the appointment at 3pm so that i can work in the morning..then go see dentist..so that my boss won't think i'm doing this cos i wan to resign dy...aaah....i'm trying not to give them idea that i 'm resigning soon....sighh...the more i try to hide, the more obvious it seems eh...actually i ahd a great time today...besides the guilty feelings, i enjoyed being busy in the morning,being productive and all...then in the afternoon just feel like lazing...i wish i can have half day job!

sleepy now...the day is over...now a new day starts...how am i gonna survive it??hmmm be an overcomer....now thinking wat job i want to go into after this...

Photos...Jay's wedding

me with bride and groom


i must say it was a beautiful wedding...and i heard the morning ceremony was beautiful too but i couldn't make it due to work commitment!aaaaaaaaaahh!hate working on Saturdays...met old friends from everywhere...
me.Esther.
Desmond.me.
trying to look funny with the poser..

Job Interview...

aiyoyo....haven't update...last week was a relaxing week for me in job and also in my social life...haha=D Last tues while at work, was waiting for a sms from a friend and was getting quite anxious when she din't reply when i suddenly got a call from somewhere with 4 digits phone no....hmm...lo and below....it was from Lundbeck!well...its a Danish Pharmaceutical company and i applied for a position as Clinical Trials Assistant(CTA) few weeks back. and they asked me to come for an interview on that Fri morning...i was like so excited then told them i can't make it in the morning and they bluntly told me they can't change cos they have meetings in the afternoon and they would only be in KL that day....and so....i agreed.i was thinking...God help me arrange my time cos i dun have many days of leave left. then a bright idea came...earlier i found out i had an extra half day left(cos i had already planned how many days would still be left for me to take at the end of the year) so i took EL. first time in my history of working in that hospital...the interviewer also told me to check my email so i did.....and i couldn't find it!!!!finally found it in my spam mail *_* so i replied to her thanking her for informing me that i would receive an email....then on thurs nite, she called to say that they probably would be late and if they are late, i should see this person who will take me to the conference room.i'm like thinking...er....ok....i tot no need to tell me if u r late...cos its normal for interviewees to wait....yeah...so cool....i think its called favour of God(?) =D

Fri came and i finally wore the clothes which i bought(a few weeks ago) especially for interviews(but at that time i din't know i would have an interview)...haha...buy by faith!haha...
was there at 9.15 and the interview was scheduled at 9.30am...they were on time...
thankfully, they din't ask me to talk about myself...aiyoo...i dun like that question...cos got so much to say mar...and dunno which one they wan to hear in relation to the job...they explained a lot to me about the job scope and description and wat i will be expected to do if i get the job...then they introduced me to the International Clinical Research (ICR) team which consists of 3 Clinical research Associates(CRAs) and told me to talk to them and ask any questions i have...so i did...it was ok lar...talked like friends...was thinking if i could work with them..and basically the job of a CTA is like coordinator, secretary and admin type. currently they are doing everything from A-Z so they are looking for extra help with the filing, emailing...answering calls..and sometimes follow them to meetings....so yeah...diff from wat i'm currently doing now...but i dunno lar...i asked for a lot of money only bcos it has to be higher than my current pay...and some benefits are lost...so now its God's turn to move....to open or close this door...i'm still deciding...if they are willing to pay me that much or somewhere near there, i guess i would take the job....and i'm worried bout career advancement....cos CTA is the most basic and lowest post in the team so i wan to be able to go up the ranks....i can't forever be a CTA....so yeah lor...God knows wat i need...
by the way, a little testimony bout this job...i asked God for a workplace not too far from home, less jam, no need to pay toll(if possible), no need to wake up super early to go work and He answered all this with this job...its in Shah Alam(can reach using Kesas)starts at 9am, no toll and its highway so wat jam??and i did ask for admin kinda job in a pharmaceutical environment preferably...and i never knew of this job until recently.

Desperation..

desperation is a powerful motivator................hehe...trying to sound philosophical...haha..but i think it is lor...when we are desperate(not talking bout you lar..whoever u r...me and myself only ok..=P), i find i do stupid things....who doesn't? was one of those late nites and while i was chatting with a friend, suddenly am reminded the things i did when i was desperate...i was saying i dunno why i was desperate and i dun even know where i learnt that from...as i looked back at my life, i realized most of the stupid things i did was done by the motivation of desperate-ness..now i laughed about it but at those times, i tot wat i did wasn't stupid..that somehow my actions were justified. Why am i desperate?What was i looking for? u know the things they say when a girl gets older and unmarried, they get desperate and will settle for any guy that comes their way. A part of me wondered why they do that, another part sorta understands why..

So, i asked God....why did i do those stupid things? my answer is to find satisfaction in those quests...but honestly, i was only satisfied for a moment and when the moment disappear, i started looking again. i started thinking of wat i can do to satisfy my heart..In the end, it is the emptiness of my heart that i'm trying to fill...It is one of those holes in my heart (as preached by Ps Bruce Monk) and to me, desperation is one of those holes..if i could satisfy my desperation, i 'patched' up one of those holes...and my heart would have 1 less hole...

Now, God's answer is....that emptiness u feel in your heart, only God can fill and heal.been reading some books about women and 1 of the books wrote that as a female, we all have a question....am i lovely?am i captivating? and we look for those answers in men, makeup, fashion...nothing wrong with those but God is the ultimate answer....He's the one that satisfies our mouth with good things and our soul...He completes us....man(ie male) will fail us...and they just can't meet up to our expectations and they cannot give the validation we need as female..
one book i read, a woman said that whenever she feels alone, she knows that, it is the way God is calling her to spend time with Him...and now that she's married, there are times when she's alone and she knows...God is calling for her..something like that lar as i remembered..basically the point is, feeling alone isin't a bad thing....its God way of saying....come to Me, my daughter. In My presence, you will find love, peace and joy....ok...its in the Bible lar...have to korek the exact verse...
so.....may our desperation be for the right thing and makes us run to God....for He loves us with an everlasting love....

Mom's bday!

Today is my mom's birthday!i took her and my dad(my dad's birthday was 2 weeks ago and mine in 2 weeks time!) to an Italian dinner(more bcos i like Italian food =D) at Pizza Uno in Taipan..i was like thinking about wat kinda food to order since Friday nite!cos they are quite fussy about food and they can't take too much milky and cheesy stuff...so carbonara is out....and lasagna....finally, i chose Oven Baked Chicken(OBC) and Aglio Olio with Grilled Prawns and also mushroom soup..my verdict.....its definitely not the kinda food i would order for myself (except mushroom soup)but i wanted them to enjoy the food and not worry bout the cholesterol or stomach upset after eating...and they loved it!i'm so glad....they think the food was great!like i said...i like chessy stuff and tomatoish stuff...so it was ok to me..but i think the standard for the food dropped....cos the food presentation wasn't very good for both the dishes and the taste wasn't that great too...i just asked my mom if she had any stomach upset and she said no....phew...=) i forgot 1 thing...i forgot to buy her cake....tmr lar..haha..
see wat i mean....-_-

Missing you guys...

during lunch today, i suddenly had this feeling that hit me.....i actually MISS my cousins in Batu Pahat.....my parents just got back from there and it was the Merdeka long weekend and i wanted to go but i couldn't cos of work commitment!(see!hospital opens on Sat!!!)

so my friend was talking bout how she always advised her girl cousins about BGR and they r still teens and how sometimes they dun listen to her and how frustrating it can be...then i tot bout my cousins...some of them are still young and i hardly have anything to do with them...i only see them once a year and besides that, i never talk much to them...the only time they see me...we dun talk much....i felt i should start to build a relationship with them now so that i can be a part of their life now....b4 its too late when they r all grown up and have their own mindset and i can't do much to shape them into the person they are meant to be!!! i dun wan to be a bystander in their life...and my mom tells me that they looked up to me cos i study till university level and not all are the studying type...so its like....you are this example that they want to be....'-_-

will make an effort to give them a call soon or chat online with them or send them birthday cards...

ReWire in PD...

and so...we young working adults went to Port Dickson(PD) for a retreat on 26-28 Aug..was looking forward to it till i found out which car i was to follow...gosh...my whole being felt so depressed....cos i was thinking that i don't know these ppl very well and honestly i do find it a bit hard to talk to them...i was complaining to my pg members and they said i'm not giving them a chance for me to know them...oh well...i complained to the person in charge of the transportation and to Jess and she told me...eh ok wat...u're sitting in a MPV.big car..very comfortable..i was like...ooohh...sounds ok also lar...can sleep in there..haha..anyways, went for my lunch and after lunch i was starting to feel better and not so depressed anymore..

briefing time i found out i was to be in another car!yay!i thought...great...cool..i know these ppl...but later the whole journey was so boring i wished i was with the MPV ppl!cos my driver was very tired but had to drive and the co-driver din't feel like talking....i'm like aiyoyo...nvm...patience, patience...
for me, the whole retreat was ok...i dun mean to sound unenthusiastic but i really do feel that way...everything was predictable...there are sessions and workshops about BGR and games groups with war cry and sketches and games....1 thing i really liked was the Survival 101. i learned how to make fire using matches(duh...we had to dig for the matches cos it was hidden under the sand and have use the compass to know the direction of where the matches were hidden) and how to keep the fire burning using newspaper and some dried twigs and boil sea water to get clean water using distillation process...it was super fun for me and i'm so proud of my teammates!(Ps alex,Mich G, Adeline and Ow). We were the 5th group to complete all the tasks out of 9 groups. then we had games....

after games, we just hang out in the sea and just let the waves hit us....wah...so nice....oh!we also 'threw' some of the committee ppl into the water and make them wet!haha......later we played volleyball on the beach and then went swimming in the swimming pool..yes...with my sandy and salty clothes...
sketches were performed after dinner and we had a good laugh....and then we went mamak...so sad kan...go PD and must go mamak...took some photos...

overall, i felt the camp was a reminder to me of the things that i already knew...i felt my expectations of a retreat have changed....i din't really make friends at the retreat or chit chat a lot...yeah..i found out i can see lots of stars at night by the beach and there are blue skies in PD...wonders of nature...makes me think of my time in Aus...

My work today...

ahhh....been thinking of wat to write...i have so many things to say...anyway, wanted to write bout wat i did today...
so....i woke up, had breakfast in my car(as usual) and reached the office on the dot 9.00am(use punch card wan...). My 1st patient for the day was a 9 yr-old boy.oh boy....he came in with this man that could look like his father (if his father married a 2nd wife) or maybe uncle or guardian or atuk...i proceeded in explaining the procedures of the test in English...neither of them replied and i got frustrated because i dunno if they understood wat i've just said and asked if they prefer if i speak in BM.only then i get a response...oh!...he can understand English...his atuk said...well...good...i thought..so i did everything i have to do for him and the most frustrating part was waiting for him to fall asleep(cos me doc dun like to sedate her patients) AND most IMPORTANTLY they dun come PREPARED!!!(which means they have to sleep late the nite b4 and wake up much earlier than usual in the morning of the test day)so they din't do it( i presumed cos i din't bother asking and based on my investigations, he said he slept at 11.15pm and since he stays nearby...wouldn't take long for him to get here!=/)....so that fella wasted my 2.5 hours..Finally...oh finally after eating Squiggles and drinking choc milk and i took away the blanket under his pillow and off the lights, he fell asleep...yay! for me....1 down....

next, was a 5 month old baby....easy peasy...no talking required just reassuring the parents that it doesn't hurt a bit...this chap kept crying and wouldn't sleep...i asked the mom if the baby can sleep with lights on and she said yes. so i let her be and he kept crying....finally, i thought why not just switch off the lights and leave the night light on?maybe the baby would sleep.....so i did and he quietens and finally zzzzzzzz......yay!another 1 down....asleep i mean...

ah.....finally i can have my lunch!! at 2.30pm..i hate it when i can't have my lunch anytime from 12-2pm....cos if i have late lunch, by the time i'm back...it'll be like 2-3 more hours to goin home...so i got back at 3.40pm(yes...makan a bit longer cos we drove out. and we dun get tea breaks anyway...and we work thru lunch time!!!not always mar....) got a message to do an urgent EEG...i tell you...these ppl really misuse the word urgent....really hate it when its false alarm....and 80% of the time it is!well...maybe 70%...anyways, my 3rd patient is a young lady...and did the same thing to her...explained the procedures, answered her questions and again reassure her that it isin't painful.....ahhh...this one is a breeze...she sleeps when i tell her to and stays awake when i tell her to!haha....excellent patient...
so my final 40 mins b4 it turn 6pm, i quickly printed out the rest of the results and cleared the room and put back the things i used and locked the cupboard and at 6.02pm i clocked out!amazing....i tot the printing of the result would hold me back cos it normally takes 30 mins to do it...but i did it in 15 mins!record man....
ah.....went home....had my dinner and watched movie on my comp...and man...time just flies!and here i am recording the events of the day in my life.....sigh....i wish i dun have to work on Sat.....shucks....it may be just half day but i still have to get up early....duh....no longer a comfort to me...oh well...did i mention how good GOd is in my work....many mistakes happened thru the day and if i tell u any of it, u maybe be shocked or REALLy shocked....but thank GOd for His grace that things would just turn out fine...really...

i've been challenged!....

i"ve been gently 'challenged' to update my blog by a friend....somemore wan to race me to publishing it...tsk tsk...boys nowadays...anyway, blogging takes time wan...must think thru wat to write.....i would like to write every single details but i think it won't be fun reading it then...

anyways, been thinking bout studying MBA. a few reasons why....get more money, support my lifestyle and my family and get more money...hehe..
problem is, i dunno if it would do all the above cos when u're more qualified, ppl tend not wan to pay you so much....and since i'm in the medical line now...doing something very technical with hardly any managament or business experience, where am i gonna start? then i've been thinking about changing job and if i do that, would i have the time to attend the lectures and i would need to sacrifice my free time and social time and i can't do wat i like to do now!-_- my parents said they would sponsor for my MBA....ok...i dun really wan to take their money cos its their retirement fund...and i dunno if investing in me is a good idea cos i dunno if it would bring good returns...
another reason for hesitating is bcos i tot of becoming a clinical research associate(CRA) and that job requires a lot of travelling and meeting docs in diff hospital or universities's medical faculties to ask them to try out a new drug and then gathering the data.how to study lar kan....so i'm stumped....
back to MBA, to my parents delight, i told them i'm gonna check out the class that a friend of mine is currently attending.so i went....and to my horror....i felt so diff from these ppl when i first stepped into the lecture hall(classes hasn't start cos we're early)as time pass by, i observed how a coursemate talked to another coursemate and they were talking bout the market share and stock exchange...my goodness....i dun talk bout those things in office, we only talked bout how terrible the clerk is for not passing on the message or how slow the nurses are when they dun send patients to us when we called them to send and how snobby and fussy that patient is for waiting for 1 hour and how irritating the customer service ppl are interrupting in our work flow...basically petty issues..
i tried imagining that i'm gonna take mba and i'm gonna have to do groupwork and who would i wan to work with...and suddenly...i realised...these ppl are of diff age s and some from diff country and some diff background(some full time students, some with working experiences and some none...) i dunno how to wrok with them....suddenly my scope of the working world enlarged cos all this while i've been in the position of where ppl NEED me to do the tests on them so i would have their full cooperation without manipulating or thinking of ways to get things done.now if i were to work in a group, i have to do TEAMWORK....aiyo...macam 1st time i hear that word....i just realised, i've been working very individually, i dun NEED other ppl's help and i DUN WAN to ask for ppl's help cos i know my colleagues wouldn't offer it anyway....(yes that's the culture la in my dept and can say hospital too...not everyone practices it tho)
so now i have to learn to ASK for other ppl's help...strangers somemore...learn to communicate...wah.....but its good lar...i realized there's more than just working in my little Neuro Lab in a little dept.
am praying wat to do next...in a crossroad...i just wan more annual leaves, 5 working days, nearby my house (not too far like KL or at least goin there got no jam), more pay and dun need to wake up so early...ya!its possible!i asked God for it and that's how i ended where i'm working now...tho i have to work on Sat i tot it was fine since i lived so near...but now i dun think so anymore...i need to get out b4 i get too scared to do anything or try anything and my brain shrinks...

Sick again..

yeah...sick again...the last time was in April cos i blogged about it...funny...how being sick pulls you back to reality..it doesn't have to be terminal illness to make you think about life...about who are the important ppl in your life and who would be there for you and who cares for you....

its always nice to have someone care for you when u're sick...i love it...maybe cos i feel loved..there was a time when my mom din't care if i was sick....and i din't like telling her i'm sick cos she will start to nag bout me goin out everyday....not sleeping enough..so its like saying...its your own fault that u're sick so y should i care for you when you dun even care for yourself?...so mean kan...yeah...so i remember there was one time i told her...you don't care when i'm sick!then she will start to repeat her story of when she was sick, my dad and myself din't care for her...she has to take care of herself and even have to cook for us!!so...i dunno y she's still saying all this after so long.....but she's much better now....she doesn't say it anymore but she shows by her actions that she cares for me....she prepares breakfast for me every morning except on weekend...and she does my laundry sometimes....i guess now i understand and see how she loves me by her actions...

Bloom 2007!

it came and now its gone! Bloom is the women's conference organised by Acts Church...so fast...been a tiring week...was asked to help with flower dedications...over 400 dedications...so 400 flowers..was very busy collecting money and writing down who owes how much..hahaha...the flowers were beautiful!but din't really smell great...from China..according to BW....haha..
i love this color called lipstick...also the dark reds, pink and whites..trying to get a good shot of the flowers..

This time round, i didn't actually sit in and attended for all the sessions...for the 1st session on Fri nite..was busy helping to arrange the flowers to be given out by the Blue and White guys...so nice kan...each of them carried some flowers and went to the stage and called out the girl's name..of course the flowers weren't from the guys but they helped deliver the flowers to the girls..so almost every girl got the chance to walk up the stage to receive the flowers...mine was given to me by Jason H. but he din't wait for me to go up the stage!he ran down and passed it to me at the back of everyone...aiya....well...i guess its good also lar...no need to run up...guys should bring flowers to the girls mar..haha...(anyway, Jason is just a friend).Then we had mini Magnum sponsored by Ps San's sis-in-law...the next morning had a few more sessions and workshops...the workshops were fun...taught about how to care for your car, make-me-up, healthy living and domestic goddess(learn about how to iron clothes, fold fitted sheets and t-shirts in 2-steps, how to pack your bags so u can put in more things(!), make cocktail food and drink, find out your bra size and how to wear them properly to support your breast so it doesn't sag too early..hahaha!)only can go for 2 workshops out of 4 ler...

We also had fun stuff like looking under your seat to find out wat u've won....not every seats got prize lar...prizes were movie tickets from GSC, Sasa gifts packs, Gap's tote bag and Bobbi Brown makeup!aaaaaaaahhhh.....and i won the Bobbi Brown makeup!!so happy!so delighted!! i remember i was telling God i wan to win the Bobbi Brown gift...haha....i dun really like to run up to the front to answer questions...some more with so many other ppl running too...so i did try to run..but cos i sat at the back...wasn't fast enough...so when the turn came for the BB stuff, i was ready to rush to the front..it was probably the most difficult question:

What is the theme for Bloom this year and which Bible is referred to?

by the grace of God and power of my PG huddles, Elaine told me to get the gift pack which Debbie had under her seat(we all sat in the same row). On it was the answer!~wah...i was the only person that walked(this was the best part!see how God works!)to the front with the gift bag and feeling every eyes looking at me...and answered the question(it was Contagious and 2 cor 2:15-16) Then, Ps San being pastor asked so...wat is the key word from the verse...i'm like...er...can i refer to the bag that i was holding? she din't say no so i looked and the key word just came immediately and i answered 'fragrance of Christ'...then she asked so...the fragrance of Christ..wat does it do?i'm like.....er...looking at the Jill and other girls who practically told me the answer(by whispering)....it influences and....er...er...wat?diffuse?i wanted to say effusion...i dunno why...i have this habit of choosing my own version of answers..but thankfully, i made me say 'Diffusing?' and everyone roared(i think...maybe its just my imagination) i got my gift!!woohoo!!!


i'm gonna look like some professional model on Sun service....haha..yeah,day dreaming...u see...it was a face palatte.i din't have brushes for it....so i din't really use it on Sun except the eye shadows and lip gloss.I found out later it was chosen by Sunil...shucks....wat was he thinking???the colors, i felt it was more suitable for darker skin tone....cos the blusher was bronze brown kind...oh well....if anyone knows how to put it on me..please let me know!i'm supposed to look sun-kissed with these make up.....=)

One of my nicest weekend break..

Man....after working so hard for over 1 month without any holidays in between(remember i work 5.5 days so its like working 6 days a week) and having church meetings here and there, finally i got my break on 28 July..its a Sat...
got an invite from Elaine and Janet to watch movie at the Starlight Cinema that night!i was so excited!!watching movie under the stars.....wow...how romantic can u get??anyway, i love these kinda things, nature and all and i've never been to one so i happily accepted the invitation. It rained in the afternoon and the movie was to start at 8pm. So we had dinner first at a Phillipino restaurant in Centrepoint. Ordered pork ribs and some veges and some soup which tastes soury but nice.Had a pleasant dinner and tried some food which i normally don't eat. After dinner, we walked to KBU and spread the sleeping bag and sat on it.Since it rained earlier, the weather was cooling.We watched Devil Wears Prada followed by Little Man. Tek Y and Jason H also joined us and they brought a bigger mat which all of us could stretch our legs and sit in watever position we like..Little Man wasn't a nice show.it was rather cheesy for me....The movies ended at almost 12pm.so we went home after that.
On Sun, Ps Kenneth preached a good message on repentance..He said repentance or to repent was meant to be a good message. but we often think of it as something bad. based on the Bible verse somewhere in Luke(?) Jesus said 'Repent, for the Kingdom of God is near.' Kingdom of God is a good news. He gave the analogy of having buffet for dinner. If we know that we're for a good dinner buffet, wouldn't we prepare ourselves for it such as not eating lunch so that we can have more at the buffet. So its the same with repenting. Its a change of mindset, thinking, lifestyle. So it isin't a bad thing cos by getting rid of the stuff we dun need, we're gonna receive better things. There were other things he said which i totally agreed with but i can't remember fully now.haha......
Then on Sun nite, my mom and i flew to Bangkok and we stayed for 3 days 3 nites. It was fun. The hotel was great for me cos its small but it has most of the facilities like the big hotels. I like it cos the atmosphere was very Western and there were no Msians there!We listened to jazz songswhile having breakfast. i have nothing against them but somehow, i dun really like hanging with Msians strangers esp if they are the kiasu type. I did make friends with the breakfast chef(haha!) and the front desk receptionist. She was so nice she wrote me a note b4 i left Bangkok. Actually at the last nite i was there, i thanked her for her efficiency and warm welcome when i first arrived at the hotel....yeah...so then on my flight back to KL, sat next to a Thai mommy with a 3 year-old son who was very active and talked almost nonstop. His dad is Caucasian and just started working in KL so the mother and child was going to visit his father. The father went to KLIA instead of LCCT to pick them up so i offered my help by calling her husband and telling them where we are. Amazing kan...can be a blessing no matter where you are.....
oh btw, most of the ppl in Bangkok tot i was Thai..when i was at the airport, a custom officer came to me and spoke Thai to me and told me to go to the Thai counter to get my passport stamped.I told him i'm Malaysia and he said oh!I tot you are Thai..i wonder which part of me looks like Thai...was thinking maybe its my flat nose and my hair style which i combed my fringe up and then tie a ponytail.When i reached Bangkok, i noticed most Thai girls had my kinda hair style...mainly have the fringed all tied up with hair clips or sprayed with hair spray.All the salesgirls spoke Thai to me..Even the guy selling water spoke Thai to me.Sit baht..huh?10 baht...haha...new word. khup kun kraa..means thank you...must speak with accent wan...so i look like a Thai...not bad eh....
so overall, it was a good holiday....i just dreaded going to work the next day!!=P

All in a day's work..

I work 5.5days a week....to me its 6 days a week because i have to wake up early on Sat. And most Sundays too...i get public holidays on Sat...that's when i sleep in but most times i dun bcos i love being up on Sat mornings and have breakfast either at home or at coffee shop.

What do i do?I'm a medical lab technologist.
er...what do i actually do? I perform diagnostic tests on patients such as EEG, ECG, NCS, EPs, stress test.
Is it like x-ray?No...i perform functional tests not take pictures of people's body parts. But i do check and see if it works ;) haha!i'm based in Neurology lab so the parts i see are heads and limbs.basically i conduct tests on their brains (EletroEncephaloGram)and nerves(NerveConductionStudies) and sometimes blood flow in the brain(Transcranial doppler)...I also help out in the Cardiopulmonary side doing ECG and Stress test.
So, i meet lotsa ppl everyday..mainly older men and women...the youngest patient i had so far is 2 months old(and she has chubby cheeks!) and the oldest maybe 91 years old.
I get a variety of patients...some have psychiatric disorder.....there was one that was so depressed after breaking up with her bf that she refused to talk and only communicate with writing and refused to move her hands or legs claiming they were weak. Another faked a series of seizures or fits to get attention from her husband i think...not sure but she was put into CCU for a week and 1 nite in CCU costs a lot.poor hubby...my colleague was so tired of seeing her that she purposely provoked the patient to fit...the nurses that were in the unit were laughing their heads off....there was yet another girl, seriously has epilepsy but took her health almost nonchalantly..

Epilepsy is a long term illness.Patients that are diagnosed with epilepsy have to take medication for at least 1 year and at most, all their life. The medication is to control the abnormal brain waves.Epileptic patient have abnormal brain waves and sometimes too much of it manifests itself in the external whereby you can see the patient has up rolling eyes, drooling, stiffness of limbs or jerking of limbs or whole body and etc. If they don't control these abnormal activities in the brain, it is harmful for the individual especially kids because it will disrupt the development of their brain causing them to be either mentally retarded or slow in mental development. When uncontrolled or medication taken is stopped halfway, patients will have uncontrolled seizres and can end up in ICU.which is really bad bcos it either makes them really really sick for a long time such as few months or it could kill them.
So if you know of anyone who has epilepsy, do let them know that only medication can help them. another option is surgery but that's only applicable if the patients have tumour or lesion in their brain.
So, i dun think i told you wat i do at work everyday...haha..will leave for another day.but i really look forward to lunch and goin home time. Lunch because its the only time i get to go out and relax..so i welcome lunch dates...haha!