Temperate,temperature and thermometer...

When i was a child, i think and speak like a child..
Thus, when i'm at work, i put on my serious 'Med Lab Tech' mask...no nonsense, you-listen-to-me, what-is-wrong-with-you-ppl!
At home, i'm 'emo girl'...-_- wat?,wat-you-want?,so-easy-also-you-dunno?,do-not-disturb.
Outside with friends,i'm 'cheerful girl!' hey-wassup-ppl!oooooooooh..so-exciting! ^_^

okok...my point is..the above lar..and having so many masks...its 'killing' me softly'. i never thought much about these things before but now, its haunting me. Who am i in church?Why am i different when i'm at work or at home?
So, i'm like the Thermometer...that watever the TEMPERATURE it is that i am in, i'm at that Tempearture.
Temperate...my temperament changes as the temperature changes....
sigh..the Bible says either be hot or cold but not lukewarm. And don't be a hypocrite. gosh..i'm trying not to be a hypocrite...to be who i really am...this is a really hard topic to address...
i just...dun wan ppl to not believe in God bcos of me and my actions...

LIFE retreat was awesomely...good...

i've got so much to write
breaking..breaks

cycling..
at night...cool air...crazy poses..

What makes...

What makes a guy attractive?

some say the looks..
some say the way he dressed...
some may say his career..and his talents..

i say...all the above..hahaha...

i think the confidence that he exudes and when walking in the purpose of God..i think that makes him real attractive.
ok..an example: David Cook..ok..fine..the 1st time i saw this guy on Youtube, i was told he's very handsome but i begged to differ. i din't think there was anything attractive except that he has beautiful puppy eyes..right..sarcastic..
then i saw him a few more times and still nah...not attractive. until tonight, i saw him singing being in the final 3 contestants...suddenly he looked really good to me..haha(no, i'm not desperate.)he was singing and playing his guitar to the best that he is...he's using his talent and he's doing wat he's made to do...wow..and that...makes me find him attractive. when a man becomes a man..its such a delight to look at him.
i guess its like God looking at us ..when we are walking in His way and in His purpose, God delights in us.

May blues...

I just realized i haven't updated my blog for almost 2 weeks!!but every evening when i come back from work i'll tell myself to update my blog...many things happened. deep stuff and not so deep stuff..been tiring working.so much work. i dun wan to complain of work anymore. it's a waste of my time and energy..

i had a great time last Sunday...i went shopping in Sungei Wang!!with Yokes,Jase,Jade and Nic..wah..for once i had a budget!!
i told myself i'll only look for shoes and bags and they should fall within the RM100 budget for both. and so i went on a mission...i went into almost every store on that floor(i din't cover the whole of sg wang) until i got really frus cos i couldn't find something i like...until..i saw this white bag..hey..looks kinda cute and big..why not..ohh..the price is ok...i'll buy it...
then we went for dinner at this Chinese look restaurant in Low Yat and wow...i had a fantastic plate of duck rice and pork belly soup for less than RM10!!! then went back to shopping and bought a pair of Korean looking shoe for RM20!!!i'm like...oh mannnnnnn.....this is like Bangkok!!haha..nolar...i was very excited to see shoes so cheap and nice..

and so i went home feeling so proud of myself for spending within the RM100 budget. i've never had to restrain myself in buying things. if it looks good to me and price not too much, i am willing to fork it out tho it may mean eating cheap food for lunch till next paycheck..sigh..
in the end, bag cost 50 and shoes 20 and i bought a top for 15...so...all Rm85!!vely good ar...
of course food and parking not included.

and i went home happy...and the euphoria lasted for the next 3 days...Yokes said she enjoyed herself..that was the best thing i ever heard for that nite and i wanted to tell her that i did too but i din't...haha..

now i have this retro looking bag which i really wanna get...shucks..if i buy it, will be out of my original budget..guess have to put it off till next month..or maybe next week..hahahahahaha...