Feels like the 23rd everyday...

yeap...23...i'm still 23...plus...x no of years. nah...it was my birthday this Tues...the celebration started on Mon nite...my dear friend from Aus came down to KL for our friend's wedding. so she decided to belanja me dinner on Mon nite...of all things, i asked for banana leaf rice in Bangsar....*roll my eyes* ppl earning 3 times more than me and i asked for banana leaf rice...hahaha...i began to realize that as i grow older and ahem wiser, i'm not so excited about eating really expensive food for my birthday but it is the friendship and time spent with friends that i treasure more. So even if u were to take me to mamak for my birthday, i think i can accept that because it takes more effort for u to take some of your precious time to spend with me than the price of the food=) gosh...i can't believe i said that but i still enjoy expensive food ok...like Jogoya, Italiannies, La bodega, Dome...Pizza Uno...Las Carretas, Sakae Sushi and more...
i really appreciate the effort and time taken by friends to just come together to celebrate my birthday...there was one group of friends who were really cute...they gave me a bunch of yellow gerberas AND St Ives products AND nail polish AND masks AND er...i forgot..but it was kinda cute cos its the FIRST time i got so many little gifts in ONE gift.so so cute...and of course, my friends are cute too..er...some may beg to differ=)
On my actual birthday day...i got a cake in church after prayer service!=) so nice...made by ElaineP's mom...sooo sooo nice...i've always enjoy cake baked with love.hahaha...and on Mon nite i had a karaoke session that was recorded...
do visit this website for more info cos this friend was so rajin...blogged it for me dy..haha..

www.andr3wz.blogspot.com

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What an un_**********

Unproductive was the word...and having a bad hair cut coupled with unsatisfactory color certainly didn't make my day yesterday...and today...i had it ALL PLANNED out but.......it didn't work the way i wanted it to be! and i'm soooo soooo grumpy now...

hmmmmpphhh....dunno wat to say dy...wanna schleep...zzzzzzzz
at least i planned to sleep around 3 something....i can still do it...okok...ciaoz

As a matter of fact...

Death always brings life into the right perspective...death is the end of the journey in this world..in this earth...Whatever you've decided to become, whatever you've decided not to change cannot be undone once u cross the finish line. I think it doesn't happen at just after the finish line but at the last few steps before you cross it, you already cannot undo or redo what you did a few steps before those last few steps. Imagine you're lying helpless on the hospital bed or just before you go into comatose condition...still alive..still haven't crossed the finishing line...but still...cannot do anything...can't tell your loved one that they mean so much to you and that you love them. probably you can hear them but being unable to say back 'l love you too' or 'i'm sorry'...

i don't know what i'm trying to get into...a relective mode or trying to be wise?
I wished i could undo some of the things that i had decided to do...i wished i had visited my aunt during Chinese New Year before she passed away...i wish i could've a closer relationship with my relatives..i wish we could've just be a family without having to bicker bout how much you owe me or him or her or how unscrupulous they are...i wish i knew my cousins more and we would be closer than what we are now...the one thing i wished perhaps was that i could be a child again..to be able to play with my cousins with such carefree spirit and having that close family ties with them....i missed those days when i can play video games with my cousins, eat durians together, have dinner together..of course there was probably no depth to the relationship but i feel part of the bigger family...i feel belonged.

Time has passed by quickly and we're now adults...with nothing much in common..and prolly nothing much to say the next time we see each other...not wanting-to-be-here-but-have-to-be kinda vibes that will be sent out or perhaps i just think too much and too negatively...
i wonder how should i feel when i get to the funeral place..one thing i know, i don't feel anything much now...and i wonder if there is something wrong with me...have i become so cold-hearted tha i shield my heart from anything that may hurt it?

God help me..i dun wanna do any rituals or things that are not right before You...i think i may need my heart mended too...so 2 in 1...hehe...

Amidst the joyful celebration...

Sometimes, i wonder why did God allow Ishmels to be born...?i mean Abraham knew that he was gonna get a son from his own body rite...and that God promised him so...so while waiting for Isaac to be born, it was a joyful news to know that he's gonna have a son and the anticipation...must've been quite exciting...and then there was the wait...and amidst the joyful celebration, Ishmels were made or had already been made...and sometimes when the real Isaac comes, wat do we do to Ishmels?can't throw him out since he's also Abraham's flesh...just like the things we started..it produced something...but when the real thing comes...i find myself in a dilemma...wat am i to do with that?its not a bad thing...but its not wat i want...i've got wat i want but only after i got Ishmel...
sigh...but i also know that God can and will make Ishmel a great nation...just that...maybe..it won't be so good in the future...like how it is now with Isaac and Ishmel now..and perhaps..i need to sacrifice Ishmel...

emo kan...

wu_fen_pu...

that is like the best place to be for shopping!!!i love that place!!!all kinda clothes from as low as Rm12...erm...actually its pretty much RM12 only...all types of baju....from korea, jap, taiwan style...woohooo...

After our exam on Sat afternoon, we took like load of pic and then went to Wu Fen Pu for shopping...i bought like so many tops for only Rm12-25 each...couldn't find cheap and great looking shoes but then again, i din't manage to walk the whole of that place.

let me show u an 'expired' drink that they served us during lunch!!

check out the date..its year 97...that's like 11 years ago...

but i'm doing fine...dint' have diarrhea after drinking that..

oklar...in Taiwan, some of the places still uses the Chinese calender system so year 2008 is actually a Western date...ahh...which means the drink will expire in sept or dec..depeneds when they put the month like mm/dd or dd/mm.cools???

yeah so for tricks only...

so tired now....i think i can imagine myself in Taipei...hehehehehehe...