To justify self righteousness...

i'm offended!so easily offended...i try not justify it but it always brings me to self righteousness..
i din't do anything wrong by coming here...i merely wanted to follow a friend and to observe the happenings of this place...but it wasn't meant for outside observation..as i found out later..
then...i get all worked up when ppl dun do work my way...my way is the fastest and most efficient.
driving...y the stupid fella....cut into my lane...no signal pun....terrible....can't even be decent on the road....aiya...drive so fast, still end up the same...oh my gosh, its peak hour, pls drive faster or the traffic light will turn red!!!

ok...can't think dy..in the morning i can think more cos get worked up more..haha...now brain power slowing down...getting ready to go on stand-by mode.

i think for now, i'll stay in msia....as much as i wish to go aus or other place, my work or the work done in me is still in progress...i dun wanna leave matters unsettled, potentials unveiled.

erm...i just received yet another wedding invitation for next month....-_-
2 on the same day...which 1 to go??Singapore or Klang??
so difficult to decide...both also good friends of mine...but s'pore expensive lar..

i like this photo..look so cute..hehe

50th post....gals and guys

I've reached my 50th post..and i'm in a good mood today..my thoughts are not so clouded with many things and i can feel the sun shining =)

so...why the change?to tell u honestly, i haven't had a good lunch since Mon. I dun even have time to take my lunch break and after i eat, i have to get back to work. Actually, its exciting being busy but i get grumpy when i can't have lunch. And special treat today!i have my 1st bubble tea for the week!ya....maybe the sugar got me high..i had lunch at 4pm but i get 1 hour break!woohoo..and it was time to go home..
i noticed that i can't give definite timing in my work so i always try to give the closest estimate..and in the morning i get bugged by all these calls asking wat time can u test this patient or doctor said must do in the morning or must do today cos patient got SPM....i hate all these excuses because it shows ignorance of the other party to wat and how we do our work. And please, its not like we suddenly come up with new protocols or procedures. Miscommunication is such a big problem and still unsolvable.
Somehow, amidst the busyness and nerve wrecking timing, God just puts everything in place. I dun want to stay back to do OT and God just arranges my timing so i hardly stay back.I din't have to worry and when i did, i only caused more problems.

anyways, after my lunch and since i'm in a good mood, i had a chat with my patient asking wat he does for a living since i noticed his left arm is bigger than the right arm. some fish or seafood thingy...i dunno!i can't make out wat he's saying.i think its some deck work...dragging...pulling...loading seafood and fish.ahhh.....i asked if it pays well...he kinda like sheepishly nodded his head..man...
Why are we studying so hard to get a good job in some nice office???we should be dragging fish from the boat to deck and work only 10+ hour for 10+ days every month with a fat paycheck!

On the other hand, i heard of comments saying church girls are boring and sad to say, some church guys agree!ok..i din't interview all the guys lar...but i hear of this once in a while from guy friends. Then some ppl say church guys are immature...
I just want to say that..being a church girl, i do not think that church guys are immature and certainly i dun agree that church girls are boring. I think they r the beautiful in their own way and mature in certain things tho not everything. I think the guys in church who are commited to God and submit themselves to leadership are made of great stuff. Guys have this desire to be respected and admired and for them to humble themselves, get rid of the prideful ego and say 'I'm committed to God and church and i submit to the leadership appointed over me.' is a respectful trait and definitely not an immature person. They maybe immature in other things but humility is their greatest strength. As for the girls, you just gotta take time to know them that they are not boring creatures adhering to the rules of the church. Instead, allow them time to bloom and help bring out the best in them and u'll see that they are not so boring after all...

Peace...
so this is wat i think now...i wonder if it will change..

I love to....

I love to....multitask. Yes, i do it most times and i feel productive when i can multitask. But i also realized that i'm not actually that productive when i multitask and i actually take longer time to finish my tasks than if i do it one at a time. And sometimes the quality i produced is not that great. But i still love to multitask.

I love to....tell stories in great length and details. When i start talking hyperactively, every single detail i shall try not to miss. I enjoy making ppl laugh and it brings me joy to see them smile or laugh. Especially babies and kids, if they smile back at me, I feel like I hit a jackpot!

Just to promote myself, this is wat i did when i was in my final year studying in Australia.

http://www.adelaide.edu.au/starting/lifestyle/whatsitlike/stories/kailing.html

You give me something...

alright...i went for a high school friend's wedding tonight in Sheraton...a part of me dreaded goin cos i'm thinking its gonna be boring and i have to see my office-_- its like 7 days a week i pass by my office building...so sad...cannot get a way from it.another part just say go lar..its your friend..last time same gang wan...and u'll meet your other friends..can catch up...
and so...i went...and to my horror(okok..maybe unpleasant surprise), all my guy friends brought along wither their wife or gf. i'm like the only girl there with no partner watsoever...dog pun tak de..-_-never mind...stay cool...got other girls coming so dun worry...and yay!my other girlfriends came and they din't bring along their bfs or husband..*_*phew***...as the nite passes by, i must say the wedding was very well organized and entertaining. The theme was Fairytale Wedding so the couple danced as they come in and again on stage and ended the dance by posing on stage with little ballerinas in front of them.They had ballerinas from ballet school to dance and walk in b4 them...
The food was the awesome....
and then i made an observation...i noticed most of my guy friends...they pak tor once and that gf eventually becomes their wife...and mind you, most of them are not Christians...so its like amazing that they r so faithful...(so,SMSJ guys are actually quite faithful.)hahah...i also heard updates of other guy friends that are still goin out with their gfs they had in F5 or F4 or F3 or college or uni...wah....its really impressive.

just a fun fact: my date for prom nite which i 'ditched' b4 prom is now happily registered as a husband to a beautiful wife!!(God remember me!!)

Musically inclined.....

so, i'm classically trained in piano...i still keep in touch with my piano teacher. she tot i would fail in my final grade but amazingly, i din't...i din't recall thinking i would fail but i know i wouldn't get a merit just a pass...and after that, my piano was sold off and i hardly touched the piano...i try to make my fingers run like how i see my friends play...i'm always envious at how easy it seems for them to play cos i never could...or i never tried hard enough.i only played in church once a year for 2 years and those were during Christmas time cos the musicians were from outstation..haha..yeah Acts Church.i remember practicing 1 week in advance b4 the music practice...gosh...i think i still suck at it...nevertheless, it was the best for that Sun worship service...haha..did u know Janet used to play the acoustic guitar and Vinod on the drums and Derrick on bass and sometimes acoustic..i was also the backup vocals then with Joel..we din't know how to play electric guitar then...

anyway, after that i went to Adelaide and joined the choir in Paradise Comm Church for 2 years and i learnt lots then....and i continued in choir back here...i used to dream of starting an all girls band and Yokes was supposed to be in it....then...i tot of playing in a band....but i never did...so now my point in this entry is...i FINALLY got a taste of how its like to sing in a band...ok...so i'm not playing but slowly ler...gosh...wait...i'm not in a band but one kind soul offered to play for me while i sing...wah...its sooooooo fun...its...addictive...so i feel like i'm in a band..haha...its just so fun...its like i got something to do after work and not just go watch movie or eat or church stuff...wah...fun....thank you friend!
maybe...just maybe u'll see me sing in some acoustic nite..if i do, will inform all..haha...

Star dust-y move...

yay!today is public hol...no need to wake up early.i'm so glad i can sleep in...the night b4 i watched Star Dust with Janet in pyramid..we watched the 11.20pm show..wah..late kan..but it was soooooo fun....we sat in the middle row and quite top also lar..best thing is no one sat next to us...so we have like 2 seats for each of us...so sit senget, stretch out our legs..the movie was awesome...we were very much awake and after the movie we analyzed the characters and laughed at the captain and Septimus and Primus and every other thing...gosh..
ok..some guys seem to love Claire Danes...to me, i dun think she acted that great and i dun think she's that beautiful...so i dunno why some guys are like crazy about her..i like the main actor tho...he's good looking and was first a boy then became a man...wah...out of adversity, he rose up and became the man...wah...so leng chai!
i'm glad last nite turn out well....cos i was like smsing so many ppl asking them to watch and myself being indecisive as to when or where and with who to watch with..ask here and there, try to work out timing with diff ppl wahh...its a headache and a waste of money!thus i conclude...indecisiveness wastes resources (if i quoted from anywhere.. sorry lar..i din't know=D)
next time, i'll just stick with 1 group...or 1 person..thank God, Janet decided to join me at a crazy hour to watch movie and she's cool about it...no complains...i dun like ppl who complains or comes bcos was dragged along or forced to go.
hmm...if look at it spiritually, God wants the best for me kan...then here i am trying to make things work with other ppl...and asking here and there...and God have to like follow my every move cos He can make the best out of the worst....so when i make a stupid decision, He may try to correct it but i din't wait to be corrected and off i go to make another stupid decision...so its like hello kid??can u just stop trying to make things work and let Me work it out for you?
this is where 'Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding.' comes in..and 'Blessed is the man who makes the Lord his trust.'
kodak moment.......

What the...?

i was reading an article from a women's magazine...can't remember wat it was about..and the author wrote this,
'You should keep your mind open but not too open that your brains fall out.'

i'm like..this is sooooooo coooollll!! yeah...i shared it with my PG members...they have this face -_- and i think they asked...wat happened to you?
haha...i think i hang out with my new colleague too much..we gotta stop meeting everyday!haha...noler...not pak tor-ing...but feels like it cos like everyday also talk and see wan...

i love my new couch..its sooo comfortable...and it has 3 little dark brown pillows..for the 1st few days, i'd wake up a little earlier than usual just to lie down on the couch and i look forward to go home after work so i can sit on the couch and watch my fav shows on the tv...yeah...obsessive..have u seen it?no...too bad...u gotta come visit me ; )
now u have an excuse to visit me..not to see me but to see my new couch...haha..=D