Every Monday when i wake up, i wished i wasn't working there..i wonder why i'm still there...why haven't i move on?didn't i tell myself last week that this is not wat i wan to do?didn't i plot my escape last week?but..i'm...stilll..there...
Then on Sat, i'll be so happy to get off work and spring into my weekend mode and plans...partying like there's no tmr and thinking wat a good life i'm having...work that doesn't require me to go back or stay back after 6pm...sighhhhh...good to know i am employed. and by weekend, i don't remember how tough my week was or that Mon is coming in soon...
and then its Monday...and i get back to that vicious cycle of scolding myself for not planning my escape during the weekend and then psyche myself to working mode again ...to endure till Fri and then more pep talk to myself that i can last till Sat...i'll have Sat off..its not too bad...its coming...its gonna end soon...just hang on...a little more and it'll be Fri...a little more and it'll be Sat...
every week...everyday...i ask myself, if i do leave this job, wat shall i do?what kinda work should i get?Wat industry should i go into?how about sales?sounds good...good pay...good incentives...how bout that?how bout this?where will i go from here?wat are my passions?what do i like to do?
I DUNNO...when i think that maybe i cuold do this or that first...i never thought about the end in mind...and when i tot bout it..then i can start where i wan to start cos it won't be bring me there..
well...isin't God big enough for me?
isin't God holding my future in HIs hands now?
Why am i worrying then?...gosh...this is gonna be a leap of faith for me..
i so want to just quit my job now and don't care wat will happen next...i'm so tired of thinking of the consequences or wrong mistakes i may make...
i just want out...and i just wan God to bless my choice...-_-
but...He has a better plan for me...so...wat can i do but wait and pray and wait...for His timing and for His peace...
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