i've been challenged!....

i"ve been gently 'challenged' to update my blog by a friend....somemore wan to race me to publishing it...tsk tsk...boys nowadays...anyway, blogging takes time wan...must think thru wat to write.....i would like to write every single details but i think it won't be fun reading it then...

anyways, been thinking bout studying MBA. a few reasons why....get more money, support my lifestyle and my family and get more money...hehe..
problem is, i dunno if it would do all the above cos when u're more qualified, ppl tend not wan to pay you so much....and since i'm in the medical line now...doing something very technical with hardly any managament or business experience, where am i gonna start? then i've been thinking about changing job and if i do that, would i have the time to attend the lectures and i would need to sacrifice my free time and social time and i can't do wat i like to do now!-_- my parents said they would sponsor for my MBA....ok...i dun really wan to take their money cos its their retirement fund...and i dunno if investing in me is a good idea cos i dunno if it would bring good returns...
another reason for hesitating is bcos i tot of becoming a clinical research associate(CRA) and that job requires a lot of travelling and meeting docs in diff hospital or universities's medical faculties to ask them to try out a new drug and then gathering the data.how to study lar kan....so i'm stumped....
back to MBA, to my parents delight, i told them i'm gonna check out the class that a friend of mine is currently attending.so i went....and to my horror....i felt so diff from these ppl when i first stepped into the lecture hall(classes hasn't start cos we're early)as time pass by, i observed how a coursemate talked to another coursemate and they were talking bout the market share and stock exchange...my goodness....i dun talk bout those things in office, we only talked bout how terrible the clerk is for not passing on the message or how slow the nurses are when they dun send patients to us when we called them to send and how snobby and fussy that patient is for waiting for 1 hour and how irritating the customer service ppl are interrupting in our work flow...basically petty issues..
i tried imagining that i'm gonna take mba and i'm gonna have to do groupwork and who would i wan to work with...and suddenly...i realised...these ppl are of diff age s and some from diff country and some diff background(some full time students, some with working experiences and some none...) i dunno how to wrok with them....suddenly my scope of the working world enlarged cos all this while i've been in the position of where ppl NEED me to do the tests on them so i would have their full cooperation without manipulating or thinking of ways to get things done.now if i were to work in a group, i have to do TEAMWORK....aiyo...macam 1st time i hear that word....i just realised, i've been working very individually, i dun NEED other ppl's help and i DUN WAN to ask for ppl's help cos i know my colleagues wouldn't offer it anyway....(yes that's the culture la in my dept and can say hospital too...not everyone practices it tho)
so now i have to learn to ASK for other ppl's help...strangers somemore...learn to communicate...wah.....but its good lar...i realized there's more than just working in my little Neuro Lab in a little dept.
am praying wat to do next...in a crossroad...i just wan more annual leaves, 5 working days, nearby my house (not too far like KL or at least goin there got no jam), more pay and dun need to wake up so early...ya!its possible!i asked God for it and that's how i ended where i'm working now...tho i have to work on Sat i tot it was fine since i lived so near...but now i dun think so anymore...i need to get out b4 i get too scared to do anything or try anything and my brain shrinks...