Still..

ok.....i'm still in the 'down' mode...hopefully it will be over soon...i wan to be happy and smiley and cheerful and chirpy and having a great time in my life...

hey andrew...thanks for the comment..very happy that u dropped a comment..i think i'm doing great outside but maybe not so great inside...=)

so...lets see...past 2 weeks i've been scolding ppl...for your info, i dun feel nice scolding ppl cos i try to have grace with ppl who makes mistakes cos i'm not always rite also mar..
so at work, i scolded one clerk, annoyed with another clerk, irritated with a colleague and i-can't-believe-it how some colleagues can be so selfish that they leave THEIR work to other ppl while they have tea.or read their books.OR even worse, go home on time when there are still patients around waiting for tests to be done on them!so sometimes i have to stay back lor...but not all the time...too much complain....nothing much can be done...their ways are dead set. just have to live with it.....in other words, IRRESPONSIBLE.

so u see, i may be irresponsible on certain days too cos maybe i'm tired cos had a long practice the nite b4 or watched midnite movies or i had a sore throat or i had a heart issue...u know..the lists goes on....so i try to overlook the times when ppl slack cos i do too. so, maybe all this is eating me up...maybe i din't overlook it and its coming out of me now....by SCOLDING ppl...or get really annoyed with patients who cannot read time(90% of the patients come late when given an appointment. About 70% of those come 10-30 mins late, 20% on time*applaud*, 5 % more than 1 HOUR LATE and 5% dun turn up.

then...today, i made a MISTAKE ( not that i never made one but can cover up or not so serious type) i totally overlooked a patient that was waiting for his turn to do his test and i gave that time to another patient!AND guess wat...i refused to stay back to do the job...oh..that's not irresponsible cos we have the right to go back on time and fortunately, this patient wasn't an urgent case...at least i dun think so!!!so...tmr....dunno how...pray hard now that he's not a serious case cos late treatment may not be so good on the patient....seeeeeee.....wat a heavy burden i carry each day...